yes, im damn angry at YOU.
WHAT EVER.
you are officially out of my friend list. SHUT UP.
BYE, I DONT NEED YOU

July...

Told you!
yes, JULY. its like my worst month of the year..
bad things happen EVERYDAY in JULY.
friendship start to have problem in JULY,
everything bad in JULY!

JULY sucks... [sorry if your bday is in July..]

july is the worst month for me..
i know that everyone is having a happy moment in July.
NOT ME. im having the worst..
its like my bad luck, or u can say WORST luck will come on July.
first is my friends, HAPPY EMO MONTH.
then is him... HAPPY FIGHTING MONTH.
then is my relationship problem.. [its not like i couple or smth.. is just my secret admirer]
*poof* GONE.
its like damn hard to see him couple with her.
okay, fine...
then what about my classmates?
one by one, GONE and GONE...
first Kent, then? VIG!
July, Thank YOU SO MUCH !
just a few more days, faster eff off.
I HATE JULY!
EVERY YEAR IS LIKE THE SAME
and i last two years, just relize why i were having such bad luck..
CAUSE OF YOU, JULY!!!

放不下你..

奇怪为何我的题目是“放不下你”吗？
其实那是我最近写着的歌。
我写歌，佳宜作曲。
我也有帮忙作曲啦其实...
我觉得很好听。
佳宜和维芯写的“情思蓝岛原” 也很有意思。
我也帮忙作曲。
写歌，就好像写诗。
写下当时的心情。

情思蓝岛原还没做完曲。
放不下你已经完成了。
两首歌都很有意思，
很好听。

我还会继续写歌，
写下我伤心或高兴的心情。
我有一个朋友即将离开我了，
我也会为她写首歌。
如果他还留下，
我会留着这首歌。
如果他真地离开了，
我会将这首歌交给她...

曾经用拥有过..

不知今天差错那一条神经线..
我总与会想到再UPSR过后和我前男友所度过的一切...
我们曾经吵架，也曾经很爱对方。
我回想着当初我和他所经历过的，回想着我俩许下的承诺..

分手前，他曾向我道歉。
因为我一时的冲动，而没去接受他的抱歉。
为何我当时那么傻？
为何当时我还那么不够成熟？
维持了许久的恋爱，为何因我一时冲动而破裂了？
我真的好后悔。

但一切也来不及了。
后悔也无效了。
如果真的有一天，他真的站在我面前，当成我是他最好的朋友一样，谈天说笑，
我真得无法抬头望着他。
我真得很想一巴一巴的扫自己..

我还记得他对我说过的一句话：
“ 无论我们分开多远，但我永远不会忘记你，也不会爱别人”
当时，我什么都不知道。我没感动，也没哭。
直到现在，如果真的游人这样对我说，我真的当场哭得稀里哗啦..

他还答应我，五年后，中学毕业了，他会比我更聪明，更伶俐。
现在，他不能实现他的诺言，我也得留着一个永恒的遗憾。

如果真的能让我再次面对他，
我真的会很内疚，很对不起他。

我好想问他，
你现在过得好吗？
你的成绩，比我好很多，很多，对吧？
你和另外一个她，过得很幸福吧?
你已经彻底忘了我吧？

我想你已经把我忘了。
为何我还挂念你？
是我想多了吧?
但我一生中，你，也算是我重要的人吧..

虽然分手那么久了，我还是要和你说声对不起。
我真的无法原谅自己，更对不起你。
你能恨我，也能怪我。
如果你已经把我抛到九云霄外了，
那我也安心了...

you are totally BUSTED! xD

this will be a long post, no patience to read? then read this :
today............fun......nothing to do........normal............happy......ok-ok......bye! =D
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today was a quite normal day... when to school at 12:18 and almost late but not late lahh.. saw Ee Min at the door.. =D
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[just studying..]
we went library for sivik class cuz im really bored so i begged teacher. she let us to go =)
then after that, have some gossips with Esther, Jia Yuin and Jasmine..
then i went back talking to Cassandra, XIn Wey and Daphne. had a "great" argue with Jun Xiang and Jaryl. but the whole while, only jun xiang is talking. Jaryl just laughing his head off =D
then Maths.. nth much bout that..
then its English.
i really hate to study english nowadays...
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[dont cry...]
Miss Anis came into the class.
we din listen to what she say cuz we really hate her.
then she shouted and scolded us. but we are still shouting and talking..
then she is like totally mad and really sad.
she sat down on her place, stated to SMS her bf or someone..
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[oh come on.. do you even bother?]
then i ask Javier whether is she crying or not. Javier said no.
so i just dont give a damn.. continued doing my stuff.
but i had a feeling that she is crying.
so i just ask Xin Wey whether she got tissue. she said yes but she dowanna give me. {idc lahh}
then i ask Niki for tissue and told her that i think that Miss Anis is crying.
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[im the worst comfort-er xP ]
then she dont even care what happen and just pull out her tissue, run towards Miss Anis.
then i run towards her too. i kee saying "teacher, dont cry lahh.." without thinking what will happen next. i din knw whether is she crying or not. just comforting her.
then she really cry..
WTH? okays..
then Hwie Xin and Daphne came. then lots more ppl come towards her.
well.. i did my stupid step to comfort her, how idiot am i?
then " RINGGGG" --- RECESS!
she ask us to go for recess and in my whole comforting is like "teacher, please dont cry.." "teacher, sorry lahh.. dont cry.." "teacher, please stop crying.."
AINT IM THE WORST COMFORT-ER??? =P
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[PJK]
yeah, skip everything till PJK.
i ask Sara why she dont friend with Farah anymore..
she told me everything and i was like damn shock.
i suddenly dont hate her and feel really sorry for her... =(
then we do the Segak thingy..
then hang out lohh..
Steffie they all saw me, then they was like "KELLYYYY~!! hai-yak! "
then i teman her main-main lohh...
then i went up to the stairs, eat my brownie i bought from Ze Xian.
SEDAP SEKALI =D
then i went back down, find stffie they all AGAIN.
then something really bad happen.. and its all because of me.. =(
haizz...
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[go home, dont think so much]
then its going home time.
before stepping out of the door, Hwei Xin and Niki show me some tadpole in the pond. {Cute!}
then RINGGGGGGGGGGG
go home time, and everyone is like "bye bye!" "bye!" "see you" "bye!" "buh-Bye!" Bye bye!" "goodbye".. ==
yeah, i went home and nth else =)

thats all for today. BYE =)

i cant get you out of me ♥

today is a harsh day for me. [quite?]
the weather is like really hot and the sun is shinning so brightly.
the first period was Geo. Pn. Pang called me out and told me i am gonna have kelas tambahan for the next month or next week i guess? but when i first heard about the news, i was like shock and really sad. but i think on the good side:

since you dont have to go to perhimpunan, so why are you sad for?

yeah, that cheered me up. =) Javier cheered me up too. he asked" you got kelas tambahan ah? i also got" LOL
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so then is english...
i miss Cik Hazlin!
Cik Anis is like really harsh with us =(
i dont really like the way she is.. after she loose my best friend's work book --- Cassandra
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yeah, its quite a happy day, and also quite harsh..
but its just all about fun! right? [ NOT!!]
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having lots of same old problems.
studying? nuh-uh. so not well. almost drop out of the class =(
well, i really wanna study hard.
but im just too stupid! i cant focus on my studies.
my heart flies EVERYWHERE..
i cant keep my heart, my soul, my mind..
they are every where!
cant concentrate while studying..
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you've took my heart,
dont think of giving it back.
you wanna give it back?
break it into pieces then.
i rather loose my heart than loosing you ♥
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thats all, i think? kays, nightz!

-if i tell you bout my feelings, will you feel the same way?

if there wasn't you and me

today take report card.. or maybe just a piece of paper..? improve some subjects but most of it decrease marks.. teacher talk bad about me.. =(
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[its not you]
i dont think i know you anymore..
you are like so different to me..
you have lots of secrets behind me.
you are with her, not me anymore.
so let it be...
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[life changes]
yeah, life is like so short yet we dunno how to use it well...
studying like crap for what?
for better results.
i woke up at 9:30am cause my elder brother need to take his report card..
aiyahh, lazy to tell you guys everything lahh..
one word : BORING
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[ she changed, you changed, everyone changed but im still so blur]
im like a person who is still staying in the same place which everyone has moved forward.
i cant trust anyone anymore..
even the last person i can trust is like *poof*
GONE FOREVER

-end of my post-