Even the Earth turns away from the Sun sometimes.

Its the 5th day of December.

Even if its the holidays, I realize I've been way busier than I'm supposed to be. Also, there's a lot of problems bugging me. So much frustration all around.

I know its hard for two person to combine into one flesh and yet its possible to. I have no doubts about anything but yet communication is really important.

I can't seem to overcome my strong jealousy towards so many other double X chromosomes out there.
 I just really want myself back. The one before darkness took over. The sweet little girl I was.

Everything I see, touch, feel; its purely innocent. Innocence that lies deep beyond the heart. Something that I would really love to shimmer into the world through my little eyes. Is that even possible? I know that evil thoughts had creeped into my heart and overtook my innocence. Its still there, yet to be found.
Who? Who can touch my heart? Who's the one that could successfully unlock the chamber of my heart and light up my innocence once again?
Tell me..

I've chosen you. I know your existance will make my world a better place. I have faith in you. I trust you with all my soul. You are the only one that can understand me, just by looking into my eyes. You've found happiness and you've rekindled my small spark of smile. Please permanently stay.

Nonetheless, I never wanted to grow up inside. I've always had the choice whether to grow up. I'm not a little kid anymore but I would love to live in a world of mine that only children understands. A peaceful world where everyone are friends. A place where there's no such thing as hate. A land where everyone can live together and be happy until Grim Reaper decided that their life had to come to an end.

I just don't want to feel frustrated. I just want to feel like a kid again. No worries, no anxiety, no insomnia, no problems.

I just want to be happy.

Love,
Kel.

PS. Please stay happy, each and everyone of you.

For every dark corner, there is always a brighter side.

Hey all.
Its like 47 more days till 2014. Time flies like some bullet nowadays. Everyday just goes by, productively or wasted. They just go and never come back.

Well, I realize I need to have some down sides posted here. Because too much up sides makes myself look fake. Who is able to be happy 24/7? Its possible, but difficult.

Sorry for the long post ahead.
I'm gonna pour my heart out, and tell you things that I didn't have courage to open up to anyone. It might change your perspective towards me, but this is me, and I am sorry. Let's just start with regrets. All my regrets in 2013.

The biggest regret is, I threw my temper at everyone when I'm pissed. Even if I feel bad after that, it's still a big no no. Its not something I'm taught to do! What is wrong with me. Flashback to all the words I have said to hurt people because I'm pissed, actions of jealousy because it makes me feel better on the inside.. what the heck!! Im out of control, merely insane! What was I doing?! I swear I regret all these things I've done. No matter how many times I have apologize, they are words said and could never be taken back. Im never gonna bring this short coming forward to 2014. Its gonna stay and die in 2013.

Secondly, I didn't do well enough to prove the leadership in me. Everyone has leadership in them, but it's whether do they show it. Everyone is a born-leader, but definitely not me. I might sound pesimistic, but its the truth, because I'm not born a leader. Not yet a leader, because I'm a follower, and when the time comes, i'll become a leader. I regret not doing better. I know I could've done better but I didn't. I'm sorry. I have made my family and friends disappointed and I sincerely apologize. I did apologize to them face to face but I can't really face them because I just can't. The amount of shame and guilt stored in my eyes just couldn't fight back.

Lastly, results. I know I've tried my best, but it seems like my best ain't my very best. I might be able to do better! I know I didn't pay full attention during classes and refuse to seek help by going to tuition for intensive extra classes. But I'm sure I did all the revisions I need to do. Maybe I'm just not meant to be a A+ student?

No, no and no. I can change my attitude and control my temper. Next, is failing to show leadership gonna stop me from achieving my future goals? No! It is now my motivation to move on. Also, I know I am a A+ student, I just have to work harder and I know I can score well in my major exam next year, which is SPM.

What's the point of me telling my regrets and saying I can do better in 2014? I want all of you to know, never to give up. Never ever say 'i can't do it'. Set your target, find motivation. Can't find? Parents. Parents are the greastest motivation for you to continue your dreams and fulfilling your destiny. Not good enough? Life. You plan your own life and you ain't gonna screw it up by mistakes and choices you've made now. You create the future. Your own future. Always remember that there's always someone to back you up, and I know when I need it, all of you will back me up. Thank you all for always standing by and supporting me.

I will do my best in 2014 and hoping there will not be any regrets at all. I might face difficulties and problems I didn't wanna face, but I will make sure I don't regret anything.

Take care.
Love,
Kel.

When sugar is no longer sweet, thats when i'll stop loving you.

Hey all! :D
Its been awhile since I've blogged. Oops :/ haha maybe its because I didn't have my comp for 4 months already. Mehh too much mapling xD but trust me, mapling was the best thing ever.

Sighh. I've been more emotional nowadays. So many ups and downs throughout this year. And 2013 is coming to an end already. Well.. what is done, is done. Next year is time for SPM. Haha!

I don't know why but I'm not really looking  forward to 2014 though. Senior year :/ and there's no time to fool around. I know throughout the past 3-4 yrs, seniors had always been there, guiding me. Well, it all has come to this year which is my turn to guide the juniors. Hmm. I'll do my best (:

Everything has been going the way I expected. Except for one thing. Regrets, full of regrets! But there's no turning back.

At least I had a really sweet 16 where all my buddies were there to celebrate with me (: I'm so grateful to have u guys!! :D thanks for putting up with all my nonsense (: really appreciate how much u guys still stick around even how ridiculous I've been! For that, thank you! ^^

Let's put a good end to 2013, alright? (: there's no such thing as 're-living' the year. So, give it ur all and strive for the best in the next 2 months! Make this year the best (:

既然2013年将接近尾声,我也答应自己将为今年画上一个美丽的句号。我们都要学会慢慢成长, 把所有错的改成对的。不要因为一点小挫折而放弃伟大的梦想。展开梦想的翅膀,往庞大蔚蓝的天空飞翔！加油！

Best wishes! (:
Love,
Kel.

Its always a good time! :D

Hey errehhbodehhh.
Just realized this will be my first post in 2013! :D

these 4 months in 2013,
i've been through so much ups and downs.
a lot of things happened unexpectedly.
Pn Shama left, Pn Cath left,
Jagdeep came and left, Mr Teoh is my eng teacher and leaving soon,
got selected as one of the BM highlights ed board member,
going to 3 camps in 3 months.

i mean like, what goes up, must come down eh?
good things happens, bad things comes along as well.
hmm.. things been quite well,
im happy and satisfied with most of the things .
Results went better than expected as well,
but i know i can do better (:

-Camp-
1. Division Camp 2013 (22 -24 Feb)
DU DIVISION CAMP WAS THE BOMB !
im satisfied and happy that i got to bond with all my friends and became close with one and other.
being part of the committee was a really, really great experience.
Juniors, be part of it ;)
u'll know how awesome it is ! xD

2. Integration Camp 2013 (22-24 March)
AWESOMEEE!!
i mean like, how is it possible to plan MK in 10 minutes?
but we did it anyways :D
Group name was eight-finity cuz we are group 8, and we can go beyond others . (:

3. Camp Pembangunan Insan (9-10 April)
ONE OF THE CAMPS THAT I CAN ACTUALLY BE MYSELF. ahaha :D
we dont represent unit beruniform,
we represent ourselves (:
i enjoyed myself to the max in the camp.
my group's name is Ohana :3
Ohana means family, family means nobody gets left behind. (:

Life's been great so far.
if there's no ups and downs in life,
whats the point?
no Ups, u wont feel happy.
No downs, u WONT LEARN.

just remember,
whatever you do,
give it all your best and also..
STAY HAPPY :D

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year . (:

Hey all (:
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONEEE! :DD
i just realize i didnt post much in 2012 :/
well, this year had been quite busy,
plus.. i always forget that i have a blog to be updated. :P
So this post would just be another random post.
Just another update ;)

So.. its Christmas today! :D
A day full of Joy, smiles, laughters.
everyone's spending it with their family members, friends.
but all im doing is, being anti-social , hiding in my room,
watching "Highs and Lows". HAHAHAH! xD
TVB dramas are awesome okay ;)

ohhh did i do an update about my PMR results?
havent? already did? lol i couldnt rmb :P
okay so heres my results..*drumrolls*
7A 1B! :D
yes i was super paranoid and nervous about my results.
"what if i got 5As? what if i didnt get any As afterall? what if my slip was burnt? what if the Government doesnt like me and lost my paper? what if.. o.o "
when i got my results, "bilangan A: 7"
OMG I SHOUTED AND SCREAMED !
AND JUMP ALL THE WAY :P
i was super happy :D
but then its sad that i didnt get straight As and my family are using it against me.
sighhh.. no matter what i do, its always not good enough.
well, as long as im happy, others doesnt matter. :P

5 more days till new year, 6 more days till school reopens.
cant wait to see my Kong this Sat :33
hopefully Kong, Ow, Poi and I will be in the same class xD
that will be the best thing thats ever happened to me. :')

so thats all for today (:
STAY HAPPY! :D

2012 is not the end of the world, so SMILE! :D -Ong. (:

A part of me will always be with you. (:

Hey There! :D
its been awhile since i updated my blog :3
IM BACK :D
recently i went to a camp. which is State Cadet Camp for St John :P
it was super fun! :D
i'll summarise 5 days of camp for u guys ;)
couldnt rmb much cuz its kinda late posting this up. :/ pardon me.

1st Day.
woke up late :/ suppose to wake up at 5am but woke up at 5:20am instead >< luckily i wasnt late to reach school :P went to SMK Ungku Aziz, saw my friends from last year's SCC (: then we were separated into groups. 27 groups, from A - AA . (A,B,C.. Z, AA).
im in Group X! :D same with Christy and Poi! :D i was super happy, at least i wasnt alone :3
apparently, i became the group leader. i didnt have any experience being one. first time being a groupd leader and okay i suck at it :/ my awesome members are Poi, Christy, Chun Ming, Zee Hsien, Jek Yee, Chu Hui, Chinson, Rubian and Wai Weng. :D
every groups are named after a Movie. ours was "The Hobbit" which all of ushas NO IDEA what is it :/
we slept in hostel for this camp! :D YAYY! xD

2nd day.
This day is the worst throughout 5 days. we had Backwoods, i dunno why but my eyes suddenly got allergic to smoke D: i rmb my favorite activity is Backwoods, as i love to cook. combined with group W for backwoods. it was with Yong Xin's group :3 met Zi Qiao and some other ppl. had fun time backwoods-ing with them :P oh.. and also, smth bad happened and i was depressed about it . ): i didnt eat for lunch and wanted to skip dinner but failed to. i ddint tell anyone what happened.. cuz i dowanna be mood killer or smth. my member's hyperness and happiness cheered me up (: and also my DU DJ friends la ;) we had treasure hunt, my group combined with Group L (toy story). SOO LING'S GROUP! :DD i was super happy cuz Soo Ling is there :') the group leader for Group L is Keng Rong. had a chance to meet him cuz i was group leader and we had to choose 1 group leader between both of us. i didnt wanna be so i let him be instead :P TREASURE HUNT WAS AWESOME. :P and also, i regret not eating for lunch. hahahah! xD

3rd day.
okay this day is like.. close to fun. :P i got closer with all my members. we were super sampat during night time la :Pan indian girl helped a lot during the course。 :D and Soo Ling was sitting right infront of me during the course~ ^^ super happy :D

4th Day.
THIS DAY WAS BEYOND AWESOME. we had to play indoor games cuz we had like 2 hrs of free time before water activities. so the committees let us play the frog game and the boom game. apparently i became the leader cuz yesterday was Keng Rong, he said take turns. so im the leader. (OH NO T.T ) we got 2nd place for the frog game. super scary cuz the last 3 group leaders have to go up the stage , holding the mic, playing the frog game super fast. i was shivering till the end. super nervous D: i couldnt even feel my legs, i just fell down on stage ._. i lost.. cuz i said 5 frogs for the 6th time ._. at least thats smth to rmb :P Water activities was AWESOME~!!! xD had so much fun splashing ppl, and getting splashed :P but its super cold >< didnt like the coldness of it D: then at night, it was camp fire night :3 sang songs and watched Area Performance. every area performed well (: congratz to KPS for getting number 1 :P and KSTS for number 2. (:

5th day.
why must this day come so fast ): we just had fun like .. yesterday? we got super close and now we have to separate ): this day is a day of mixed feelings. happy that we could go home, sad cuz we had to separate. i hugged I Shuen (owed me since last year's SCC xD) , Yong Kee, Yong Xin and Sze Hui before we left (: and bid others goodbye (: it was the best camp ever (minus day 2) ! :D cant wait till SCC '13 (:

thats all ^^
for my Juniors, PLEASE ATTEND SCC CUZ ITS BEYOND AWESOME! :D
love you guys ttm! ^^
Keep In touch <3 p="p">

Simple things.

Hey there! :D
sorry for not updating that often D:
hope that all my blog readers are in good condition and in good health :D

okay im here to update bout the outing i went yesterday :P

i was suppose to go to 1U new wing entrance at 11am but there was a slight delay -.-
so i reach 1U at 11:30am.
then Zhui Lin and Xue Ling are there. weeeee~ :D
we walked into 1U together, then we meet up with Laura.
Omg Laura is so cute :3
then Jia Xin and Pui Ee came :D
and Jia Min was a little late due to some issues ahaha :P

we ate lunch at Burger King since Zhui Lin got some coupons.
so i ordered something i couldnt even finish -.-
im so sorry, starving kids.. i didnt mean it ): forgive me T.T

after lunch, we went to cheong K :P (Karaoke Session)
theres only 7 girls (:

6 plus Zhui Lin the photographer (: Thank You Zhui!

so i was in a very hyper mode.

im bare-footed :D

i was jumping all around like a freaking monkey first time seeing the world :P

singinggg :D

Anyways, there was a freaking mouse in the KTV room -.-
when the waiter came, i was telling him what happen in cantonese and chinese,
He laughed D: he thought i was kidding D:
then i say "no no im not kidding" and he laughed and say "i know"
LOL WHAT THE D:
everyone laughed when i speak to the waiter ):
whuuuut? D:

whole day spent in Karaoke session :P
around 4:45pm, we went to arcade for the photoshoot booth.
after everything was done, it was 5:10pm already.

the sticker pic from photo booth :3

i thought that i was late since i told my dad to pick me up at 5pm.
i quickly hug everyone goodbye and say thank you to all of them for the accompany today and ran to the main entrance.
guess what? i sat there for an hour. -.-
then Zhui Lin's mom arrived, so when Zhui Lin was running out,
i stopped her to borrow her phone.
i feel so bad D: im sorry Zhui Lin ><

when i called my dad, he reach already -.-
lol whuuuut.
so thats about today.
a day well spent. (:

Good night fellow readers! sleep tight (:
Ong loves you! (:
Love, Ong.

back row from left: Laura, Xue Ling,  Pui Ee, Mindy
front row from left: Jia Xin, KELLY ONG! :D , Zhui Lin . (:

Group photo! :D

A day well spent. 24.11.12

best friends (:

because once u are Ong, u stay Ong. (:

 Thank you all so much for today. i really look forward to the next outing. (: i love you all to the max!

the distance between us.

Hey thereee :D
Okay i decided to update my blog cuz im bored. hahaha xD
So.. i attended my young bro's graduation last Friday.
i knw its kinda late but naahhh its okayy :P

I went to PC2 with my daddy,
then we were waiting for my mom cuz she left her phone at home.
she picked up her phone, then she left.
while waiting for my mom, my dad was thirsty .
so i got him a Soy milk :P
when i was at the canteen, guess what? I SAW ZHUI LIN! :D

Awesome Girl i met since 6 yrs old till now. (:

 We then entered the hall :D The hall was HUMONGOUS! it was newly build and finished constructing this year. it is still under minor construction though (:
its even bigger than the DU's Dewan and also it has air-conds :D
can be compared to the halls in colleges and universities :P
Hopefully next year's Concert Gemilang will be in PC2. AHAHAHAHA xD

the hall :D

anyways, Zhui and I was supposedly sitting with my dad,
but Zhui wanted to move to the front,
so i asked permission from my dad whether can i move to the front,
he said okay :D
but i feel bad for ditching my dad and make him alone though ):

The performances were AMAZING! :D

Jia Min! :D

Zhui and I saw a few of our Classmates :P
Chieh Long and his gf :P, Jia Min, Ang Ji.. (:
and some std 6/09 students (:

So we took picture, i was being really sampat with my friends cuz i miss them so much :P
actually i ajak Ow to go back too since he is a ex PC2 student but gahh its alright he didnt attend . -.-
nvm, i still had fun anyways :P

in the end, i cried with the graduation kids cuz it reminded me of me 3 yrs back :')

My younger bro, Alex. (:

it was such a perfect moment :')
i hugged some of them since i knw them cuz of my younger bro.
My younger bro didnt cry though. xP

after the ceremony,
i went home, after lunch,
 my elder bro and baby bro went swimming,
so i went along :D

i did not went into the pool,
i just sat on the swing since its near the play ground :P

thats what happened with my last Friday, well spent. ahahah :P

Okay, as for today,
supposedly i had plans with miss King Kong,
but then my parents just HAVE TO say no cuz they need to do something. grr >:(
nvm la, their things are always more important.
so i ajak her on 1 Dec di :P
the day only with Miss King Kong, and miss Awesome Ong :D
unless my dad doesnt trust me and request to bring my younger pain-in-the-neck bro along ><

Okay bye peeeps :D
Have a fun and well-spent day! :D

Ong and her #lazysaturday . (:

Ziyi ! :D

Shi Ni, my younger bro's friend (:

Smart little Magdeline (:

Ka Ka! :D knew her since i was std 5 (: