请比我爱TA，别管我挣扎；不让泪流下，切断了牵挂..

Meowww (:

Hellooo! :D

Today i din go school ):

7 subjects today, missed 2 periods of Maths. Im sure there's a lot of things to learn during maths today :x

i didnt go to school, part of it is cuz of gastric, the other part is cuz im lazy xD

I had a really nice dream.

and my mom woke me up from it ):

so i said i dowanna go to school :D

since got MC then dont waste it larh :PPP

i went eating breakfast, then i took my meds.

then i went sleeping.

i dream of him, then i woke up, then sleep and dream of him again, then i woke up again..

it went on and on for 3-4 times. all different dream but he appeared in every dream.

then i woke up, it was really bright so i cant sleep anymore, and i check my phone, it was 1:48 already ._.

first thing i did was text him. but i knw he's still in school so i didnt expect any replies.

I went downstairs to have my lunch. wanted to skip lunch but i need to eat medicine so i just went down to eat.. haihhhhh...

after lunch, i ate my meds and wanted to go sleep, but i cant sleep anymore ._.

i took my phone,

i went downstairs again and go online.

Kong Kong texted me :3

thanks Kong Kong :D

i love youuuu, my Kongggg! :D

hehhhh :D

ahaha i feel hungry again xD

i should go eat now.. i guess :P

Dear You,

I love you. :)

sometimes, i just wanna forget everything and restart all over again.

Hello, people! :D

Today was a nice day (:

the only thing that is not nice today is i dun get to see him ):

school was nice :D

BM was damn funny xD

Pn Zaiton wants us to read the syair. not wait, SING the syair xD

then half of the class sang the syair :P

the Malay students were really good at it xD

The chinese students were awesome! xD THEY MADE PN ZAITON LAUGH :DDD

u knw Pn Zaiton looks damn strict the whole time.. and she laughed today :O

i didnt sing the syair cuz i was lucky enough to get away with it xD

then it was Science.

i was a bit pissed with the permanent seats.

when i sit infront for like 3 months and no one wrote the placing, and when there was once i was late so i sit at the back and they HAD TO write the placings on THAT DAY.

so i was damn pissed and i was like "i sat here for 3 months and i only sit at the back for 1 day and this is what i get?!"

they didnt wanna make me pissed cuz they didnt see me getting so pissed before so they lemme sit infront :P

sorry for being stubborn >< i just dun like to sit at the back :P

after recess was maths :D

I didnt knw how to do some work and then Cik Ilyana realized she gave the wrong exercise to do so since we done it, she just continue teaching and gave MORE work ._.

Maths is really fun when u knw how does it work :P

then it was english..

it was Literature ._. i lend my "How I Met Myself" novel to Andrea and i forgotten to take it back :P i ask Pn Chng to let me go find Andrea and she was like damn pissed but she just lemme go.

Andrea didnt bring it ._. so i had to find Wei Keng :D

When Mia was reading the chapter 3 or 4 in the novel, i was half sleeping already ._.

when teacher gave out the papers for exercise,

i.. fell asleep ._. i dream of him xDD i cant remember what was happening in my dream but i can remember he appeared xD

then last was Sejarah :)

Pn Haizan didnt attend. i can understand why she didnt attend ._.

she is such a nice teacher (Y) She is pregnant for 9 months and yet she still come back to school to teach (: such a responsible teacher (:

Cik Liang was the relief teacher. i was doing science notes.

Chapter 4 notes #badpokerface

drawing the diagram was the worst part >< ppl think im a sicko for drawing too detail D:

i went home around1:15 (:

then i was online..

then im bored..

then then thennnnn! he came online and gave me the link to watch "on call 36 hours" xD

he mmg knw i like to watch Hong Kong drama :D

Thankssss <3

then i wasnt that bored when im watching xD

i just finish bathing and now..

im here :P

okay gotta go watch some more xD

CIAOOOO :D

Expression of love.

Heyy (:

Its been a while since i last updated :P

Sorry for not updating due to my laziness and busy life :P

This year is PMR year so got a lot of work to do. Finally there's a bit time for me to overcome my laziness and update my half-dead blog xD

Someone mentioned about my blog a few days ago..

and then only i realize i forgotten bout my blog xD

so.. allow me to type in chinese :)

其实，

我没想到我当你是最好的朋友，你却有办法骗我一年。

一年里，你骗了我多少？

我陪你ponteng, 我陪你带电话，闯什么祸后我都陪你承担，

但换来的是什么？

你ditch我，你对我爱理不理，你当我是后备朋友。

一年了，我一直信任你，你对待我那么差，我一点怨言都没有。

我一直相信，你一定会改过的。

我一次又一次的给你机会，你的故事却编了一则有一则。

你说你是大家姐，你说你买凶杀人，你说你弟弟鬼上身，你说你得胃癌、血癌，你说你进医院，还是紧急病房，医生给你打3支镇定剂，你骗你搞暧昧的那个男的说我男朋友说你美，你在我面前讲家姐的坏话，在家姐面前说我坏话，你说你的手机信息300-1000封，你说有人送你钻戒，你说你表哥被他妈妈罚不可以吃饭，罚下跪，你煮5碗面给他吃，他吃到完，你说你4天什么都没吃，你一次又一次的编故事。

终于，我听腻了。我揭穿了你的谎言。

当我骂你的那一刻，我是很开心的。

我终于可以解脱了！我终于可以做会自己了！我不用做你的狗，我不用再陪你闯祸！我真的很开心！为什么早早以前我不要揭穿你？这一年，很辛苦！但现在，你的报应到了！你，加油吧！

我以后不会再原谅你了！不要求我。

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致；

我爱的你，(:

我，

怕失去你。

每当你有一点生气，我都会说对不起。因为我怕没了你。

没有你的生活，我不敢去想象。

没有你，我会很不习惯。

我很多事都宁愿藏在心里，都不敢和你开口，

是因为我不想看到你为我担心的样子。

每当你哭，

而我什么都做不到时，我会觉得自己很没有用。

我不管别人怎么反对，

我喜欢跟你在一起，是我的选择！

有时候，我也很想让你懂，我有权利选自己想和谁做朋友，

可是我怕你生气，怕你不开心，所以我没开口，宁愿自己受苦，都不想让你不开心。

朋友很重要，但你也很重要。

那天，

我们差一点点分手时，

我真的很怕、很怕..

我不知所措。因为突然要失去你，我真的不知道该做什么..

我不想失去你，我不想过着一个人的生活..

有了你之后，

有时候我会想起我们在一起的时候，而傻傻的笑..

有时候想起我们之间不开心的事，而心情莫名的低落..

而有时候，心里一感应到你不开心，会突然落泪.

你知道你多么的重要吗？

当你不开心时，我习惯一直问你为什么那么不开心，

而且还一直说对不起，深怕是自己做错事。

可是，如果有一天我不再问了，

不是我不再关心你，

而是我已经习惯你不开心，明知自己怎么问也没用。

所以我希望你能开开心心的过每一天，

不要胡思乱想 (:

无论任何事情发生，我都会陪在你身边，

不会离开你，不会丢下你 (:

我爱你哦~^^

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