The questions that never gets an answer.

Okay.
Fine.
If you wanna be so mean to me,
then fine. ):
cuz i dowanna be sad anymore.
i just gotta work out by myself.

i loved you so much.
i gave you chance.
i inbox you,
MSN messaged you,
i even post on blog!
what else can i do?

if you wanna treat me that way,
i just wanna let you knw,
im gonna walk away from this relationship.

but i really wanna knw what happen.
dont regret for not holding me tight.

i have guys waiting for me to say yes,
and im waiting for you.

please..
i've already cried,
and i tried talking to you..
just tell me why..
what happen between us?

why you dowanna talk to me?

its okay to lose you,
right?

to me, never.

i still love you.

but if its really time,
i guess i just..
gotta..
let. you. go. ):

Love comes and goes without saying a word.

I miss you a lot.
where are you?
why do you wanna leave me?
why?
what did i do?
):
i dowan you to be sad,
but i din knw you want me to be sad.
well,
thanks.
thanks for..
leaving me alone.
thanks for..
breaking my heart apart.
thanks for making me miss you.

but honestly,
thanks for letting me know,
you loved me before.
i love you.
i really do love you.

Roc,
where are you?

never felt so heartbroken before.

I really need you.
i really miss you.

why do you wanna hurt me?
just come and go so fast~

i really want you by my side.

why do u just vanish so quickly?

i dont even have a chance to..
atleast say..
BYE ):

why do you wanna ditch me like that?

whyyyyy? ):

what did i do wrong???

whyyy? )':

please tell me why.
really need to knw..
please..

-smile fade away,
Kelly Ong

i just dont get it. why?

okok,
im sorry that i hurt you.
im sorry that i said i would let you go..
but what else did i do wrong?
why you wanna ignore me?
if its really my fault,
im really sorry.
but why?
what happen?

can you just answer me?
WHAT JUST HAPPENED?

i dowan u to have arguments with her,
just becuz of me.
but why did you just leave me alone like that?
without even saying a thing?

is it becuz im closer to other guys?
thats why im wrong?
i can change.

is it becuz i said i dowanna like you?
thats why?
i din stop liking you at all!

is it becuz u gonna break up with her?
is that why?
i din force both of you to break up~

i din do anything wrong..
why do you wanna just walk away like that?

do you ever care about how i feel?

have you ever realize what you've become these days?

i really wanna comfort you when u're sad.
i wanna be the one that let you scold all you wan when u are angry or pissed off.
i wanna be the one that laughs with you!

I.DOWANNA.BE.THE.ONE.THATS.LEFT.OUT.

i just wan you to be happy.
i just want you to feel better.
i just wan you to live on with hopes.

i just wanna be with you.

-without emotions,
Kelly Ong.

Though we're far apart, you're always in my heart.

Grandfather.
You were like a friend to me.
we joke around.
but thats when im 8.
now, we arent close.
But this morning,
at 8am,
i was at nirvana,
at my grandfather's (father's side) grave,
cleaning up and praying,
and a phone reached my mom,
after she hang up,
"my dad passed away"

my grandma (father's side) was like "HUH?!"
yes,
cuz grandfather,
you are healthy all the time.

you woke up this morning.
you did laundry.
you cooked breakfast!
but why din you eat first?
why did you go take a nap?

):

you took a short nap,
and you din wake up.

grandfather,
you left peacefully.
we're happy that u left peacefully.
but you are really awesome.

eventhough we're not close,
anymore...
but..
you'll still be in my heart.

take care <3
i love you,
grandfather.

-without emotions,
Kelly Ong

if my segments gets seperated, i'll scream, and you'll be there.

The bird and the worm music video w/lyrics

awwww this song is so cute x3

thanks to afriend that recommend this song to me. (;
(you knw who u are <3)
the lyrics are really cute ^^
well, i knw reading lyrics is boring,
but trust me,
this song's lyrics is cute and meaningful :P
go on,
click and play the song up there,
copy and paste the lyrics and learn it up if u love it ^^

The Bird and the worm Lyrics
If you're the bird whenever we pretend it's summer
Then I'm the worm, I know the part, it's such a bummer
But fair is fair, if my segments get separated
I'll scream and you'll be there

Close your eyes, close my eyes
Slide the cotton off of your shoulder
And feel the shine, feel the shine
I'm hooked so toss me over and cast a line, oh I'll try
Oh, throw a party and greet my undersea friends
It depends, as they arrive, if they arrive

You and I left our troubles far behind, troubles far behind
But I still have just one more question on my mind
For all my pals who live in the oceans and the seas
With friends like these well, who needs enemies

If I'm your boy, let's take a short cut we remember
And we'll enjoy, picking apples in late September

Like we've done for years
Then we'll take a long walk through the corn field
And I'll kiss you between the ears

If you're my girl, swirl me around your room with feeling
And as we twirl, the glow in the dark stars on your ceiling
Will shine for us, as love sweeps over the room
'Cause we tend to make each other blush, you make me blush

You and I left our troubles far behind, troubles far behind
But I still have just one more question on my mind
For all my pals who live in the oceans and the seas
With fronds like these well, who needs anemones?

You're the bird and I'm the worm and it's plain to see
That we were meant to be

We were meant to be
We were meant to be

If you're the bird
If you're the bird
Then I'm the worm
We were meant to be

-with love,
Kelly Ong.

you are the colours of my life.

25.3.11
so how was my day your asking?
SUCKS.

firstly,
i went to school happily today.
and my partner that sat beside me came.
well,
im sitting with someone.
but the next minute i turn there,
great.

IM FREAKIN ALONE.

yes. i effing cried again.
sorry, i broke my promise ):
im not suppose to cry ><
mood swing i guess.
change place with a guy.
so im sitting next to a guy which i dont really know him.
and next to another guy that tot i takde mood.
(i knw u are reading this :D)

then after that i think of him when doing maths work,
lagi shit.
cry until dunno how to talk ><

then after few minute chill lah mmg.
then recess i go library.
dont have that eating mood.

then it was chinese class.
boring.

then english class.
teacher din even teach.
LOL. ==

luckily cheng wey and adrian ask me to talk to them.
and played game with cheng wey.
he hit my hand damn soft at first,
but end up my hand bleeding xD
damn syiok.
CHENG WEY, REMATCH!

and thanks to Iqbal who cheered me up :D

if not i'll be crying like crap.

and you too, Roc.

you are everything im searching for.

I din talk to him.
well,
im confirm heart broken ^^

i still have awesome friends.
and cant wait till st.john camp (school) and area cadet camp ^^

My dad lemme go~ Woots~
^^

Awesome peoples~ <3:
Cassandra
Yong Wen
Hwei Xin
Xin Wey
Daphne
Jia Yee
Wei Xin
Zhi Yin ^^
Jie Yen ^^
Ryan Panda Daddy ^^
Benjamin ^^
Jane Ooi
Soo Yee
Yi Hang
Ze Xian
Iqbal ~<3
Azim ~<3
Cong ~<3
Safwan
Syahir
Jian Wei
Feefeey
Jia Yuin <33
Vi Nie <33
Steffie <33
A Wai
Samantha
Javier
Justin Chong
Miki
Batrisyia
Artekah
Diyanah
Adrian Fong
Sue Lin <3
Soo Ling <3
Bei Er
Wing Yee
Audrey
Andrea
Niki

and more more more awesome people ^^

dont worry,
u might not be in this list but u'll always be in my heart ^^

He's the one i think of all the time.

This is a special post just for my best buddy,
Iqbal :D

How we met.
its just all started out last year...

there's this once.
one of my friend,
she says she saw a HAWT guy~
and i ask who was it.
she say he's a guy name IQBAL :D

i was like..
who is he? o.0 lol i dunno him~

then on the following monday,
my friend point to me.
"there~ thats iqbal! aint he hawt?!"
i was like "ahah ok lah xD"

my first expression towards iqbal was,
He looks so fierce.. should i say hi to him? :x

then on weekends,
my friend ask me to add him on facebook.
so i added him ^^

and my first time chatting with him was..

me, iqbal
"hey"
"hi"
"nice to meet you"
"nice to meet you too"
"you are from 1 Kenanga right?"
"yea"
"well, im from 1 Mawar (:"
"oh"
"thanks for being my friend"
"ok"

lol it goes something liddat. xD
i forgotten adi.
damn long xD

and after that i din really hear much from him.
but i din expected we're in the same class this year xD

then the first month was kinda awkward..
and then he spoke to me :D

and theres once..
i said something wrong..
and he scolded me :x

and i cried T.T
but then he told me why he was pissed off.
AT CONG LAH!
(CONG, U OWE ME xD jkjk)

then everything was settle down and we're like best friends again (:

and today in class,
we're like sitting in a group,
talking to each other with his gang. ^^

from strangers to best friends.
well,
best experienced ever ^^

Iqbal,
I LOVE YOU ^^
as a best best best friend~
xD

(:

I've made mistakes, loving you was the worst.

Credits to JiaYuin.
i just love this picture (:

Jia Yuin,
u're talented ^^ i love ur photographic skills..
plus, this is what i feel right now.. :/

well,
Life goes on.
even without you.. :x

thanks for being there. but sadly u weren't the right guy.

Dad:
what is the purpose of keeping my phone when there's not even a single credit in it?
its not JUST my phone.
its my torchlight, alarm clock, clock and radio.
i dont need to text or call.
you are not keeping my phone.
you are keeping my torchlight, alarm clock, clock and radio.
):
=========================
[He came by.
and he vanish.]

I dont understand why is it so hard to talk to you?
you changed already..
we used to make fun,
talk crap, be random.
but now?

we dont talk to each other.
we argue about stuff.
our conversation is always awkward.

when you are angry, pissed off or sad,
i try to make u happy.
i dowanna ask are you okay.
cuz i knw obviously you are not.
so instead of asking,
i try to make you happy..

but you said not now.
wow..

i din knw guys can mood swing better than girls.

i dont think i knw you anymore.
through public,
you treat me like im your close friend.
through MSN,
you dont even wanna talk to me.

well,
thanks for making my tears flow again.

i dont even think you care.
i dont even think you are reading this blog.

i might not understand you.
i knw im wrong.
but cant you just talk to me like normal?

im sorry if i make you feel bad..
im sorry if i ever hurt you.

but,
im even more sorry that,
i.cant.love.you.anymore.
yes,
it hurts me saying this but,
i really need to let you go already.

cuz you already have her.
this time,
i really will let you go.

and i wont be talking to you that much,
anymore.
its time to tell the truth.

Roc,
i love you.

i loved the wrong guy.

i edited this..
well, suckish skills (:


I loved the wrong guy.
):

he wasnt meant to be mine.
after all.
):

bye,
love one.

i really love you.
i really do.

why time flies so fast when im with you?

First time editing. wanted a DSLR sooooo badly ):

he doesnt wanna reply me on MSN ):
whyyyyyyyyyyyyy???

i love you~
like so much...
i can wait.
but i dont think so anymore.

CUZ YOU DONT EVEN WANNA TALK TO ME.

fine.
be that way ):

he have everything. but not me.

I love you.
like a lot.
but it seems like,
im not important anymore.

you rather talk to other people,
but not me.

thanks for making my smile fade away again.
why must i cry for you?
you dont even know whether am i crying or not.

fine.
if you dowan me,
just say.
if you already lose feelings in me,
just say.

im thinking too much.
i dowan you to forget me.
i dowan you to leave me.
i need you.
the more i say i dowan you,
the more i want you to be with me.

i really love you.
but why are you with another girl?

why?

i gave up all my chance of being in a relationship.
just to wait for you.
i guess you just think that,
u are wasting my time.

thanks for all the hurt,
all the tears.
thanks for accompanying me,
for the past few weeks.

i knw,
maybe,
you're. not. worth. it.

but i believe that,
one day,
you will realise that,
you.are.my.one.and.only.

i see you driving 'round town with the girl i love, and im like :" FORGET YOU"

Yesterday went to The curve ^^
actually was for karaoke only.
but then some of my friends wan me to teman them..
so i went with 2 diff groups.
one was from 10-5.
the second wan was from 5- 9 (:
actually it was suppose to be 10-3 and 3-7
but then the whole thing changed -.-'

the first outing was kinda awkward :x
the second outing was...
KARAOKE!
xD
It was with ZhiYin, Ryan, Jie Yen, My Bro, Matthew, Wil Ken and Benjamin.
i din talk to wil ken and matthew :x
thru MSN got talk to matthew lah..
xD

In Red Box,
jie yen, zyin and i sing until siao adi xD
sing till tired and no voice still singing xD

then the guys joined in
still very siao xD
we sang "Cee-lo Green's F you" xD
thats where my blog title comes in (:

ahaha
im sooo hyper after the outing ^^

now still very hyper
still singing~ xD

cant wait till the next outing :PP

the best that i can get

tmrw St.john camp meeting 12-3pm ^^
cant wait :D

camp from 8th April- 10th April
7pm (friday)- 2pm (Sunday)

:DDDD

woohooo~

its really AWESOME to be a St.John first aider ^^
you can learn NEEEEEEEEEWWWWW stuff,
and and meet NEEEEEEEEWWWW friends xD

instead of having suckish friends that hurts you,
u can find other friends that actually cares :3

but not just in ST.John lah..
BSMM, Scouts, Pandu puteri..
all also got good friends wan.. ^^

CANT WAIT TILL CAMP <3

hmmph..
wanted to upload the pic that im in St.John uniform..
but THE NET IS TOO SLOW ><
i give up already :x

maybe i try later xD
or maybe upload to Facebook :3

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~ xD

tell me what i wanna hear

13.3.11

cant wait till St.John camp ^^

3 days without love stress~

Im in Squad 5. xD

SL: Tang SooLing

ASL: Lee Bei Er

WOOOOHOOO~ ^^

he was perfect.

not anymore.

omg weih

yesterday i cried again :x

i promise myself,

"cannot cry adi. be happy lah"

after i stop loving him,

im like damn happy adi.

but now i love another him,

wtf i cried again. :x

but i settle everything adi.

i will be smiling again ^^

i wont cry anymore

i promise myself.

but when i hear sad songs,

i freakin feel like crying ><

OMG i should stop listening to radio

and listen to his voice more often ^^

ok gtg, bye babes~

gonna blog soon.

i love you.

yes,

im talking to you.

u knw who you are.

<3

Loved you once, love you still. always have and forever will.

exams are near. x/

ahaha why the hell am i still online?
xD

i dont care.
the exams routine is:
dont study,
exams,
hooray after exams,
cry and regret for not studying

AHAHA.
its the same every exam.

I met a cute guy :3
ahahah~
i coupled,
he coupled.
but we like each other.

ahaha sho cute lah xD

he damn cute wan.
but too bad diff school :(
if same school best weih xD

ahahah
i just knw him for a few days,
but we're on the phone every night.
texting every moment.
chatting through FB and MSN everytime xD

he sooo cute.
cant resist.
xD

ahah but too bad we're both taken.
xP

ahah im being flower heart here.
ahaha sorry boy.

xDD

I met a perfect guy.

LOL BLOGGER (Y)

damn lazy to blog lah.
dunno what to blog about =.="

first,
is about exams.
studying geo, sej and science.
epic fail lah ><

oh oh!
I MET A FEW LENGZAI.
ahaha
yesh. LENGZAI. xDDD

KIM HYUNJOONG,
CHO KYUHYUN,
KIM JONGHYUN (Y)