"because you're a girl"

i have tried all my best the score in my exams.
But this is what i get in return?

I DONT WANT YOUR EFFING MONEY.
I JUST WANT SOME TRUST.

Before i start my story,
first,
i wanna congratz to my bro who scored
6A's in his PMR.

[back to my story]

atleast i have this small little place to talk.
thanks to blogger.

Din i tried?
what did you all do when i was young?

"See, my darling Kelly girl is so smart! she so young only, some more so smart already! when she grow up sure very smart one. *turns to the boys* see, you all must follow Kelly ah! she so young already so smart!"

THATS WHAT THE EFF YOU ALL SAY.
I DIN EFFING BRAG, OKAY?
YOU ALL ARE THE ONE WHO BRAGS ABOUT ME!

now, today,
cuz my brother got 6A's in PMR,
then you all turn to me and say
"why everytime you brag about your results? your results like shit only! you see you brother! he dont brag then he got so good in his PMR!"

*sorry for swearing but i cant take it anymore. below might have some offensive words. if you dont like people swearing, please dont see content below*

WHAT THE ****?!
I DIN BRAG AT ALL!
YOU ALL GIVE MY BROTHER RM600 TODAY!

*flashback*
REMEMBER THE DAY WHEN I GOT MY ****ING UPSR RESULTS?!
WHAT DID YOU ALL DO?!!!

"5A's ONLY MAH! SO WHAT?!"

fine, you all dont give me reward then FINE.
WHY MUST YOU ALL GIVE ME THOSE ****ING EXPRESSIONS?
YOU ALL DIN EVEN SCORE 5A's IN YOU UPSR AND YOU ALL ARE SCOLDING ME?!
WHAT THE **** IS WRONG WITH ALL OF YOU?!

im the only girl in the whole family.
with cousins or not,
im still the only girl.

its not that i didn't try,
ITS BECAUSE YOU ALL DIN GIVE ME ANY ****ING CHANCES AT ALL.

you all keeps on giving me those ****ing faces.
you all keep saying i brag.
I DIN ****ING BRAG, OKAY?!

fine,
its all MY FAULT.
cuz im a ****ING GIRL! (Y)

Dont turn back, just keep walking. -Life goes on.

Im having a bad time..
Cuz of my lagging computer.
Wanted to upload an image on blogger,
but my comp keep on lagging.
sigh.
Sad.

Angry and hate is just an emotion.

Well, im just bored.
In a certain way,
i think that mature is really useful.

If people are childish,
they will just hate other people,
and start to create war.

If people are mature,
they will bear other's infirmities.

Well,
i can see that your gang,
are just kinda immature.

Its alright.
I'll just wait till u and your gang,
become more mature.

You are angry at me,
i wont hurt.
If you hate me,
you are the one who is suffering.

So,
IM JUST YOUR BACKUP FRIEND?!
gosh,
i finally understand what "friends" are for.

有时候，事情并不是想象中的那么复杂

Sometimes,
Life really hurts.

But if u think in another way,
It might be better.

Lets say,
ur friends ditching you.

good way: they just want you to know that they needs space.
bad way: they are ditching you and they hate you.

which way is better?
everything has a good side,
and a bad side.

If you think everything in a good way,
u'll be happier.
If you think everything in a bad way,
u'll be more miserable.

be happy,
think in a better way <3

跌倒了，就要学会自己爬起来。

well,
i cant express my feelings to anyone out there :/

I saw my 3 years old brother,
Fell down on the ground.
He didn't cry at all,
But he got up all by himself.

I saw him felt like crying,
but i din wanna help.
he din cry and stood up.
My baby brother made me proud.

He teach my a valuable lesson.
If you fall down,
Learn how to get back up yourself..

Heartbroken=fixed.

I've fixed my fragile heart.
Im never letting it broke again.
It broke few times this year..

So im not gonna care about anyone,
like me or dislike me,
Im still me.
If you dont like my personality,
then just shhh..
and walk away as far as possible.

I love my PC2 friends.
They support and stands up for me no matter what.
But i also love my SMKDU friends,
cuz no one can replace anyone of you.

there's 6 Billion people out there and i've met you。

One and only.

i thought that form 1/2010 is gonna be more mature.
well, i was wrong.
my friends from PC2 are way more mature.
We fight,
the next day,
we are friends again.
Close friend.

well,
I remember Madeline and i weren't that close at first.
But then,
now she keeps in touch with me often.
she's a really great friend that anyone would have.

I remember how Niki used to dislike me.
But end up when everyone turn away from me,
she is the only one supporting me.
she is a great friend that anyone could have.

Madeline,Pui Ee, Xue Ling, Zhui Lin, Clarissa,
still keep-in-touch with me quite often.

Well,
Janice Yeoh, Pei Wen, Diyanah, Miki, Tracia,
You dont hatta find them,
they will come to you :)
they will turn ur frown up-side-down :D

i was lucky to have all of you.

-the end of my only..-

Happily ever after.

Well,
I love the way my brothers thinks.

i ask my elder bro,
"if the whole school hates you, what are you gonna do?"

he answered,
"so what if the whole school hates me? its still my life what.."
Well,
that really cheered me up.

i might loose all of my friends,
but after 4 more years,
i'll be graduating already.

i will not contact those so-called "friends" who hurt me.
I'll just contact those good ones,
like Janice, Pei Wen, Diyanah, Miki,
and lots more.

Im happy again.
Im not letting myself suffer from problems anymore.
I'll be happily ever after,
and the story ends here.

I wont treat anyone as my best friends.
It turn out to hurt so much when they ditches you.
So everyone is a friend.
No such thing as "Best friend" anymore.
it seems like the word "best friend" doesnt exist anymore..

Butterfly.

If i were a butterfly,
i will be more stronger.
I will start out under the leaves,
in a butterfly egg.

I'll becoming a caterpillar,
and i'll only be alone.
I will be eating my leave,
without anyone.

I'll be a fat, juicy caterpillar soon.
I'll be heading to the tip of a branch,
and set up my pupa,
alone.

I'll be in my cozy pupa for 14 days.
Alone.
i will become a beautiful butterfly.
I just have to wait.

Finally,
i had became a butterfly.
Im the ugliest butterfly,
cause im only black and white in colour.

I dont care if im ugly,
i dont care other people's comments.
I'll just fly around the flowers.
I'll just fly into the sky.

I wont be as miserable as i am now.
if im sad,
i could fly away.
If im hungry,
i'll just fly to the bushes for flowers.

Butterflies..
How i wish im a butterfly.

Insane peoples.

People nowadays are getting more insane and insane,
day by day.
some became KONGKAM,
some became bitches,
some became jerks,
and some became insane.

LOL. i saw someone wanna get married at the age of 13-14.
LOL waddahell? nuts punk.
His girlfriend is even more insane.
wont feel malu or anything and she is just 12-13.
LOL news feeds rocks! it let me saw this stupid news of this stupid couple.

LMAO this world is getting more insane!
First, the "experts" found out how to make MEN pregnant. [wtf?]
then, work at a age of 15.
Now what?
married at the age of 12-14?!

gosh. dont they knw whats call "get a life"?
working at 15 is not THAT insane.
"experts" finding out how to make MEN pregnant is INSANE.
but getting MARRIED at the age of 12-14 is
VERY VERY INSANE.

couple enough lah!
this couples,
dunno who are they.
if i know them,
I'LL SERIOUSLY SLAP THEM TILL THEY ARE DEAD.

there's even 60+ peoples support this couple.
WTF? they ki xiao,
their friends also follow ki xiao!
their family said NO
and they still dont care.
hahaha! LOL!

if my mom or dad says NO,
i'll sure stop.
or couple secretly.

BUT THEY EVEN POST ON FACEBOOK!
a place where everyone views.
LOL i dowanna support them.
if i support them,
i also ki xiao di. [if i know them lahh]

WTF is wrong with those punk-ass nowadays?
think until SOOOO far.
so young wanna marry di..

LOL do they even knw how to "MAKE" babies?
do they even have the ability to take care of their child?
do they even have the ability to take care of THEMSELVES?
they dont and until 21 only can.

and thats a long way to go.
if the guy really insane go XXX with the girl,
then he will go to jail,
and the girl cannot go to school,
and her whole life would be RUINED.

im not insane,
im not stupid,
and if i were the girl,
i would ask the guy to TAKE DOWN THAT POST.

freaks.

-everyone is getting insane!-

back from Johor, Batu Pahat

YEAH im back.

i went to Johor, Batu pahat to pray or something like that. LOL i hate there. is so freaking boring!
I LOVE MY COMPUTER! xD

i love to stay at home...
i dont like going out.
i only go out if its for me.
cuz im really lazy to go out for NOTHING.

call me selfish, call me lazy.
yeah, i dont care at all..
girl's thoughts are all complicated.
boys has the ability to sit there for 15 minutes,
thinking of nothing!

COOL i've tried before but i FAILED.
hahahaha!
Lol i have nothing to post.

this is the 311 post. saw my blogger's status.
"im just a little girl lost in my memory - 310 post"

让你走,是对的选择吗?

well, NOVEMBER!!!
i shouldn't have let you go...
T.T
its december already...
MY POSTS FOR A MONTH IS GETTING LESSER AND LESSER!

last time use to be 30-50+ posts/month
NOW?
not even 20...

well,
IM REALLY DESPERATE TO MAKE MY 350TH POST!
this is just the 309th post T.T

NOVEMBER!!
crapppppp...
DECEMBER IS HERE!
means 2011 is coming soon..
AND, AND
HOLIDAY IS ENDING SOON!

why a i talking like a children? ==
well, sometimes i feel like slapping myself from being childish.
if like that, i would have gotten tons of slaps from my own self.. :P

hmm..
what to post?
what to post?
my post are getting shorter and shorter,
lesser and lesser,
day by day,
week by week,
month by month...

WHY?!
WHAT HAPPEN TO MY BLOGGING INTEREST?!

well, im desperate to get the 350th post xD

CUZ I WANT MY 400TH, 450TH AND 500TH POST!
xD