Im Leaving soon.

Im gonna leave Selangor soon.
Maybe this year, maybe next year.
Im not gonna stay here and let people back-stab me.
im not gonna stay here to hurt people.
Nor letting people hurt me.
im so gonna leave.
im not gonna stay here in this bitchy place.
maybe i could fine somewhere better,
to study, to have a better friendship.
and have a better chance to change.
i can change into someone else.
im gonna hide my personality.
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when school starts,
i was hiding my real personality.
im not really a kind hearted person.
im a faker.
after awhile,
i decided to show my real inner-self.
but no one accepts my inner self.
so i decided to go somewhere else and hide it again.
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i've said sorry already.
but u still back-stab me.
fine.
im totally over it. =)
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wonder where am i moving to, right?
im gonna move to penang. =D
and if i have a chance to come back,
i wont visit my friends anymore..
i'll come back but im not telling.
i dowanna get hurt again. =)
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PENANG, here i come~! xD

那一声对不起

为何你要那么固执？
你不能说声对不起？
说一声对不起，会死吗？
为何你错就要我说对不起？
为何你说吵架就吵架，
好回就好回？
你把友谊当什么看？
一个能踢走而捡回来的球？
一个坏了就丢的玩具？
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我根本不知道你心里在想什么。
你让那么多人难做。
为什么你要哭？
博同情啊？
然后跟他们讲什么我又怎样怎样，
我又那样又这样。
让全部人把我当成坏人？
你厉害。你行。
你可以一个人生活下去，
难道我不能？
你要好回就好回，
当我什么？
发泄物品？
对不起咯，本小姐不是这样给你玩的。
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本小姐要做善事，
天天念经。
不得空理这些小事。
因为你哭，所以全部人才安慰你。
你每天只会哭，哭，哭。
好像我是你的谁？
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那么命苦，
要看着你一哭，二闹，三上吊。
我不会的咯，
我跟你讲。
本小姐心情好，
不跟小人计较。
你把我成为大小姐，
你呢？
自己整天哭。
好像全世界欠了你这样。
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喂，
耍花样啊？
我比你厉害。
你一，就会你的katholik
二，就转校。
三，回家睡觉。
我没心情理你。
我要睡我的大觉，
看我的电视，
写我的小说，
玩我的电脑，
上我的课。
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反正，
你走你的阳光道，
我走我的独木桥。
以后呢，
井水不犯河水。
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我们的友谊到此为止。
话毕，
别再见。

misunderstanding you.

I've misunderstood you.
i din know it wasn't ur fault.
u din tell me anything and just walk off.
but in dewan,
she told me everything.
u were the most innocent wan.
i din know she pulled you with to sit wif her.
wow, she is totally the 幕后黑手.
im sorry.
but i seriously cant believe in ur heart,
im a effing two-faced female dog.
im sorry for what i've called you.
i din know anything.
im really lost in this friendship.
im losing all my target and i dont even know why,
why am i having world war 3 with you?
its not even ur fault.
she is the one who is wrong.
she never wanna say sorry.
im over it.
but seriously, im sorry.
you wanna know who right?
i must make sure i never get this wrong.
i dowan people to perasan and say im saying sorry to them.
im saying sorry to you,
you and only you,
im sorry,
Cassandra.
yes, you.
cassandra. =)

You weren't the sunlight i need.

i cant believe you were the biggest two-faced bitch.
you've change a lot.
we aren't the person that change.
you have one bitch body,
but two personalities.
thats what i call a bitch.
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[tears out of us]
see? if you know you ownself will cry,
dont even think about laughing or teasing ppl who are crying.
cause others will tease you back when YOU cry.
i went and ask you,
can we be friends again?
but too bad, you've shut ur mouth.
at first, i was thinking,
"why not we be friends in bilik jahitan and when we get out of this place, we're enemies again."
but i cant say that to you.
i wont make you cry even worst.
its not because i want you to forgive me or what.
its because i dowan teacher to scold you.
but, too bad lah.
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[being an idiot doesn't solve all the problems.]
you know about everything.
you told her that you hate her so much.
you are the one that started this shit.
you could have shut ur mouth,
and not telling her that you hate her.
you started this shit.
in ur blog.
i dont care.
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[ i finally know why.]
i know why i shouted at you.
cuz i was PMS-ing.
i din know at all.
when i reached home, i realize that i was PMS-ing.
since u take it badly,
throw away ur own money,
fine then.
why should i tell you why i shouted at you?
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calling people wannabe, two-faced bitch
without telling the name,
aren't gonna make anything change.
im not telling ur name cuz i dowan ppl to hate you guys.
and they aren't involve.
think before you do.
Bitch.

Im over it.

Im totally over the friendship between us.
i dont care whether i have it or not.
when i want to be friends with you, you denied.
when i dowanna friend you anymore,
you come back to me.
what the shit is wrong with you?
im a human, i have feelings too, okay?
its not just both of you have feelings.
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[two personality,one human body]
before you even asked us, "why we say change then change?"
please think whether have YOU changed.
you became someone else.
you are not you anymore.
you keep telling other people how hurt you are,
how much you hate me.
i dont care.
you keep pulling people to side someone.
you know how hard for me to tell them "be neutral,be neutral"
please lah, stop telling people that doesnt involve in this shit.
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[adding ur sister has reasons.]
both of you think that adding ur sister is being a wannabe?
stupid. think again.
ur sister come to bilik jahitan.
im the only one ur sister knows.
i told ur sister u are in another KH room.
and you,
ur sister went and picked u up.
you weren't there.
you sis ask me "are you Kelly?"
i answered yes.
she ask me" where's _ _ _ _?"
i told her you went home.
and im the only one that is there. alone.
i added ur sis. ur sis knows me. atleast they can know where are you.
so call me a wannabe?
think twice.
think again. what does wannabe means.
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i cant believe you told ppl that doesn't
involve in this shit that how bad am i.
whatever.
stop asking people whose side are they at.
you ask me not to let people side anyone.
but you urself did that.
wow, you are a total pathetic bitch.
congratulations. BITCH.

I dont need this shit.

[just the way i am]
everyone is changing so badly.
i realize that only Yuk Chai and PC2 ppl can be really trusted.
i would tell them ALL my secrets.
but for others, im not so sure to tell or not.
Pc1, Pc2, Yuk Chai ppls are so good! ^^
i dunno what is wrong with others.
i just knw that currently i can only trust Xiao Di, Huai Sheng and Hwei Xin.
others, i dont know. =/
Sad right? maybe cant, maybe not.
im not sure.
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[im changing]
yeah,im changing a lot.
changing into someone else.
someone everyone else's dont knw.
maybe i should pretend that im someone else so i can be more happier! =)
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[shit asses]
i treat ppl good, they treat me like shit.
some ppl dont need to treat them in a different way, they still treat me well. =)
some ppl i dont even know, treat me well too.
like those ppl who passed by, they comment.
they ask me to be more brave,
being human is not like that, i should be more blah blah blah.
so good. ^^
not like some. hurt me in such a bad way until i dont even feel like being human already.
i wanna be a bird. fly so far away, until no one can find me.
until one day, my life ends, i'll die and no one will be sad =)
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[ i'm not me no more]
dont even think about trying to convince me to change.
im me and forever will be.
i will become someone else.
someone you dont know.
i wont ever be the old me again.
being old me, just to let you guys bully?
no. i must be brave. i must fight back.
im not stupid. im not so naive anymore.
i've grown up. im not me anymore.
yes, im not me anymore...
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-if you wanna tell me something,
talk to me properly.
dont scold me using that f word.
cuz you are the biggest bitch and you are the worst fker.
you are so damn fake.

Kel
-im just me and whoever i wanna be-

最近发生好多事...

人，就是那么善变的吗？
为什么在绝交前不能回想以前一起度过的一切？
为什么在最需要安慰时总是得不到？
为什么自己最信任的朋友竟然不属于自己的？
为什么做什么事都不能随心所欲？
为什么知心朋友对我要那么冷漠？
为什么所拥有的友谊不能长久？
为什么最少讲话的朋友能在自己最需要时出现？
为什么所有事都要自己去解决？
原来人必须那么烦恼...

谢谢你们！

路过者，
谢谢你们的留言。
我从你们的留言中得到了很多知识。
你们对我真好，谢谢你们！
=）

Its Friday. Its August.

so fast... yeah, tmrw's a school day for me.

ganti 4 Nov. on deepavali. why do they ganti so early worr?

yeah... Puasa's gonna start soon.

im like " what should i do? what can i eat on puasa? or should i puasa too?"

school is fun but not today..
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[ I WANT FREEDOM]
today need to bring colour pencils for drawing bar chart of out stupid results...
they say after recess only colour and start doing but what happen?
Cik hayati came in the first period and asked us to start writing and drawing stuff.
i was like "ok.. since its nothing much.."
then i ask teacher what is it about, how to do.. blah blah blah...
then we start doing..
*RINGGGGGGG*
RECESS.
FISH HEAD.
teacher dont let us go recess!
fine! she own self go can, we cannot. WTF?
then she ask us to go recess.
but there's only 1-2 mins left! what we eat? shit ah?
then me and hwei xin ran down and eat.
lucky for us cuz when others wanna walk out, they kena scolded by Pn. Tan
then niki wants to eat bread.
so i went down. FISH HEAD!
no bread. i was like "what to do? what to do?"
then i just go up.. Niki stomach pain like crap..
thx to bar chart and those kaunselor crap.
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thats all. BYE