Its the 5th day of December.
Even if its the holidays, I realize I've been way busier than I'm supposed to be. Also, there's a lot of problems bugging me. So much frustration all around.
I know its hard for two person to combine into one flesh and yet its possible to. I have no doubts about anything but yet communication is really important.
I can't seem to overcome my strong jealousy towards so many other double X chromosomes out there.
I just really want myself back. The one before darkness took over. The sweet little girl I was.
Everything I see, touch, feel; its purely innocent. Innocence that lies deep beyond the heart. Something that I would really love to shimmer into the world through my little eyes. Is that even possible? I know that evil thoughts had creeped into my heart and overtook my innocence. Its still there, yet to be found.
Who? Who can touch my heart? Who's the one that could successfully unlock the chamber of my heart and light up my innocence once again?
Tell me..
I've chosen you. I know your existance will make my world a better place. I have faith in you. I trust you with all my soul. You are the only one that can understand me, just by looking into my eyes. You've found happiness and you've rekindled my small spark of smile. Please permanently stay.
Nonetheless, I never wanted to grow up inside. I've always had the choice whether to grow up. I'm not a little kid anymore but I would love to live in a world of mine that only children understands. A peaceful world where everyone are friends. A place where there's no such thing as hate. A land where everyone can live together and be happy until Grim Reaper decided that their life had to come to an end.
I just don't want to feel frustrated. I just want to feel like a kid again. No worries, no anxiety, no insomnia, no problems.
I just want to be happy.
Love,
Kel.
PS. Please stay happy, each and everyone of you.
