what i do to have you here..

OLLA PEEPS.

Im studying now. -___-

Updating my blog with a short post.

Geo is fun :D but all the banjaran and empangan is not fun ._.

im gonna study form 1 geo, sejarah, science and KH.

then im gonna memorize my Nilai and pengajaran for BM,

then gonna go read my Boscombe valley mystery notes.

Form 2 is fun.

the exams are fun compared to form 1s.

HAHAHA im going crazy.

DID I JUST SAY EXAM IS FUN? :O

okay I AM CRAZY.

actually, nope.

i cant wait till after exams.

Good luck in ur exams too! :D

Vin, Andrea, Steff, Jia Yuin, Jazlynn, Yong Wen, Nichole, Wei Keng, Nina, Aliya, Divya, Jessica, Esther, Jian Wei, Zhi Cong, Miki, Batrisyia, Niki, Samantha, Javier, Kian Yang, Ben, Poh Leanne, Jia You, Yvqueen, Su Ling and every one of u that i din mention :P

CIAO :)

Tomorrow will be a better day ;)

Hey peeps! Hows life so far? ;D

Hope you guys enjoying life now ^^

I woke up at 10:55am today. slept at 12:30am yesterday but cant manage to wake up early ): I had my lunch adi ;D Wantan Mee. Bought it from hawker stall in Centrepoint since my house near centrepoint. the noodles are nice, but i still prefer kimwah's wan.

Why must we move out in the first place? -_________-

Today will be a wonderful day to study i think :P just joking.

I give up on my studies. Im not gonna Ace anything. 65% for every subjects is my aim. (:

Im gonna study bit by bit. Finals is here.

it wont be killing me unless i let it ;)

I've prepared to go for last class next year xD

Following my bro's foot steps :P

PMR aint gonna pull us down <3

Ciao Blogsters ;)

Will be updating soon. (:

准备好了3,2,1, Im always Online.

I want finals to end soon! :D i know im not gonna Ace anything, but i can still be in SMKDU is enough. :')

Next Year would be my PMR year. but its gonna be fun right? ;D

next year, im gonna miss all my favorite little juniors like Nina, Divya, YvQueen, Su Ling, Aliya, Poh Leanne, Jia You, Rachel and more.. im so gonna stay back to see them! :D every friday try finding time to go out with them ;)

Next year, im gonna be someone nicer. i'll be more serious on my studies, be more mature and less dramatic. i should change the way i treat things :P im being too over reacting sometimes. :P

Im gonna go recess with Andrea :D but if she wanna hang with her gang, then i shall hide myself in the library then :) except for the few days when library is not open -________-

Im gonna stop all the dramas between my friends and I. we're friends and nothings gonna break it. :)

Next Year Form 3 and Form 4 recess together. so.. Library is gonna be packed? i hope not ^^

Im not eating. Im gonna save up my money for going out with my friends ;D

Next year, i will continue St. John, Chinese Club and Basketball but this time im gonna join PRS ;D im just worried if i cant get it. it'll make me damn disappointed.

I'll see if theres any other Koko i can join.

Next Year, I have to attend for tuition already. my mom force me to. ): but its okay. :D before tuition, im gonna go visit my grandmother :D then i'll walk alone to Uptown for tuition。 #foreveralone :')

I like using the hash tag #foreveralone xD cuz im awesome like that ;) I hope i can remain in Kiambang or go to Dahlia or Cempaka. its cuz of the studies je (:

Im gonna pay 120% attention to what teacher's gonna teach like how i did this year xD

the things im not gonna change is my friends :P im never gonna change them. ;)

Im planning for next year adi. ahahaha. (:

2012, its gonna be a awesome year for me.

Cheers!

Hey Babeh, i think i wanna marry you.

OKAY OKAY RANDOM TITLE :P

Good morning :D

Im not gonna post dramatic stuff anymore :P i've been too dramatic in the 2 previous post. im gonna post about my daily life ;D

Today is deepavali. ._. i woke up at around 7am, and i was bored so i went back to sleep since yesterday i slept at 1am :)

Then i woke up at 9:30am, on the comp and start to check fb and twitter xD

I mmg lifeless (: i dunno what to post la actually.

i dowanna talk about finals. its gonna be my worst nightmare ._.

im bored. like seriously.. i havent eat my breakfast yet ):

Im gonna go get smth to eat now ^^

Ciao Blogsters <3

And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while.

i realize a lot of my friends are secretly reading my blog without telling me.

Makes me feel so touched :')

Today wasnt a productive day for me. ):

i dont know why but its quite hard to concentrate nowadays. so i just online :P sowwie. im a playful girl and i gotta admit that :D

I try not to post emo things. unless i really cant take it :P need to learn how to control yo!

I called Andrea and talk to her bout some stuff. i felt so much better after that :) Thanks Andrea! :D

Im scared and excited for finals. :P Scared is cuz its gonna set which class im going next year. Excited is cuz i have a bit confidence for Sejarah, Science, Geo and maths :P

For BM, BI, KH, Seni Paper 1, Sivik, hahaha i gg.com. my moral adi gg. got 69. cried cuz of that. ): i was expecting 75. T.T but its okay, i dowan get adi get loh. how?

sorry for my broken english. thats me :D im lame, and cinapek. i have to admit that ._.

I drank Chicken essence. the taste damn... ._. i dont know how to describe it. its like drinking water, then after that got a kind of strong chicken smell then when it flows down my throat it taste so.. empty._.

sorry for my bad explanation. Bad at explaining yo! :DD

Have to learn my grammar adi la. cannot stay like this :P look on the bright side, my bm is worse than my english :P

Im gonna go back to my primary school on 4 Nov for children's day >:D gonna gobble up all the children's food! xD just joking. i dont eat much.. or do i? :P im just gonna go find my gang that i didnt meet for ages xD and all my primary school teachers ;D

I miss my gang <3 hopefully i can go back man. i still can recall what happen last year. its a total disappointment mannn! all thanks to my dad. -____-

oh oh oh! guess what?

i dunno what to say. :/

LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAME :)

Ciao!

Its either everyone is my friend, or everyone is my best friend.

This song is awesome <3 JJ Lin's voice is dayum nice ^^

This time, im gonna either pass with low marks or fail. But hopefully EVERY subject get AT LEAST 65%. hopefully weihhh.

if i get 65% for every subjects, then i get 65% for average, which is a very nice thing. (: 1. i wont get kick out of school, 2. i will remain in Kiambang. :P

Dear someone,

i cant go 1U now and i choose not to cuz finals is coming and i have to study. please dont get pissed at me just cuz i cant go 1U with you.

Sincerely,

Me.

can this day get any worse? (its a question, not a challenge.)

Im just freaking piss off at my dad now.

this will be a long post of MY INNER SELF. if you wanna say ANYTHING about me, saying im LOA, pathetic, whatever, PLEASE LEAVE BEFORE I GET PISSED AT YOU. this is MY family problem and i have NO ONE to tell to, okay?!

i've been reading other people blog saying how bad their dad are and i know how they freaking feel. at least they will have a sister or a mom there for them. BUT WHAT DO I HAVE? both parents are treating me like im the maid in this house.

im sorry for posting this. i just cant take it. seriously. why? cuz i've been holding this since std 3. the day you said you wanna send me away! DAD! im ur freaking daughter. YOUR ONE AND ONLY daughter.

when we go out for dinner with your pathetic uncles and friends, and ppl started complimenting about me for being the only daughter, and saying that i can manja whenever i want, I FREAKING WANNA POINT A MIDDLE FINGER.

even though im the only daughter, IT DOESNT MEAN I GET ANY BENEFITS. the chores, i always do double. every week, i risk my hands for getting burned by the iron. but what do i get? not a thank you but i have to wash the dishes, WIPE the floor using just 1 PIECE OF CLOTH, sweep the floor every week!

the studies, i MUST be the best among all my siblings. WHAT GIVES? my younger brother's academics are better than mine. im not smart! i never said i am. and even though how much effort i put into my studies, I WILL NEVER ACE MY EXAMS. why? BECAUSE IM NOT SMART OKAY?!

i really wanna shout at my parents. calling me a sohai and a bitch INFRONT OF ME. and its not even my fault okay? your fucking favourite beloved little son, A FUCKING BRAINLESS 4 YEARS OLD, throw candy ALL OVER THE FLOOR and started smashing it by using toys, i was shouting at him and then gor gor help to clean it up! i din ask him to okay?! and then when mom started to say "ur little brother giving you job again?" to my bro, then dad started saying "what ur little bro? this sohai give jobs wan la" WHAT THE EFF MAN. and mom started to say "always blame ur little brother"

WHAT GIVES MAN. i din even blame ur favourite little son! am i the one who throw candy all over the floor? AM I?! if its me, i wouldve cleaned it all up, BY MYSELF. no one in this house would ever help me. NO ONE. including my elder bro. he might help me sometimes but when i really need him, he would ask me to do everything MYSELF. im the only girl, and its lonely enough already. why wanna give me so much troubles and let me face it myself?

im not a boy and everyone in my relatives will ALWAYS side my bro. including my favourite aunt. i always know that everyone is siding my bro. NO POINT coming forward to me and say "actually, i love you as much as i love your bro" IT DOESNT HELP OKAY. if you really mean it, PROVE IT. when my bro needs money, YOU FREAKING GAVE HIM RM50! when i need money? u ask me to earn it myself. ya, being the only girl SUCKS.

I really wanna disappear from this house, this family. its seriously unfair to me. my brothers need money, you guys trust them and give them MORE THAN ENOUGH. when i need money? you guys DONT trust me at all. say that im cheating your money. EVEN if i hand in the notice swaying i need this much amount of money. i just dont have the rights to talk. I HAVE to do everything myself.

all my friends in my school have awesome lifes with their parents. not all, actually. some have family problem worse than mine. i have to face everything myself. thanks to my mom's sister saying she wanna send her OWN mother to the old folks home, making me worrying about not seeing my grandma anymore. and thanks to my dad for having fights with his own mother, which is also my grandma. no matter how much my grandma put effort in doing things, NOBODY APPRECIATES. i've made my promise. if i grow up and earn money, i will take care of my OWN grandparents. but then sadly both side of my grandfather passed away. i WILL take care of my grandmothers.

NO ONE appreciates what i do. no one cares about me. even my friends. they have their own problems, i have to be their listener. but when it comes to my problems, THEY JUST WOULDNT LISTEN. im a loner. im forever alone. no one understands about me. not even a single bit. when they say they understands me, i will just nod my head and smile. im not dedicating this post to any of my friends. im just being over reacting thats all. i just feel lonely and i wanna have friends to cover up my sadness of being lonely BUT WHEN THIS HAPPENS, people say im LOA, fitting in or smth. im just lonely. i already have this kind of family, and i have to face these kinds of friends. THE WORST PART IS, when i start talking to boys cuz they are less dramatic, people started teasing the boy. it makes me feel so bad, so i just stop talking to that boy. and then, i'll become lonely again.

SERIOUSLY? you wan me to state out THAT ONE friend that i can go through anything with? no one comes into my mind. i have no one with me. im facing everything alone. why is all this happening to me? i have to face depressions alone. i have to face troubles alone. i admit im a trouble maker. i admit im not a good girl. i admit im not those kind of girl that everyone adores. im not the happy kind of people. i have feelings too. but in school, i just have to SMILE, laugh or sometimes just be a hardcore. NO ONE CARES. my haters care. they always watch every wrong moves of mine and started talking about it.

im just tired of all this shits that everyone is giving me, okay? MOM AND DAD, dont ever compare me to those africans. even though they starve, they die, they are poor, BUT THEY HAVE A PERFECT FAMILY BEFORE THEY DIE. their family goes through this whole pain with them. eventhough its just a short time they spend together, they still spend it happily. sometimes i've been wondering, why us, average people, cant live as happy as those poor people?

Im being pathetic. fuck my life.

以为你什么都懂,原来只是我以为..

恭喜我。

我得了恋爱恐惧症，以及轻微忧郁症.

我怕恋爱。也害怕受伤。

我想单身。而且要单身很久的那种。

我已经不想再为“爱” 这个消遣的东西弄伤了.

够了。我不想再疯了。

我要学会坚强，

学会独自面对一切！

我要变得更爱自己，

更独立，更坚强。

我不要再低头了！

我要勇敢的面对一切。

我对自己许下承诺，

我一定要做到。

一定要..

emo all over again. :')

Nowadays,

im emo again.

Why?

I should stop being emo and have lots more fun before my life ends ._.

Its okay,

I still can face everything alone.alone..alone...

Yes, Alone.

Im always alone.

Im forever alone :')

Nvm, i got to go anyways. bye (':

im not happy now. i wanna cry it all out. but its hard. cuz i dont know how to express my feelings through crying. i tried smiling, but the sad feeling is still there..

you.. yes you ): whyyy? T.T

but sometimes..

All i need is just a hug from you. but i'll never get it,

anymore.

Its just not worth it.

Whats wrong with me? you really wanna knw?

Im tired. im tired of all the dramas. im tired of caring for friends that never cared for me. im tired of starting a conversation, trying to keep it alive by saying random things but you just dont bother to put an effort to keep it alive. im tired of missing someone so much, they dont even care. im tired of talking on the phone. im tired of talking to people that thinks im fitting in. im tired of studying, even though i already know how much i study i still wont ace my academics. im tired of holding on to something that will never be mine. im tired of comforting other people but when i need comforting no one cares. im tired of life. im tired of myself being so tired. i tried to be nice to people but no one cares or bothers.

im trying to be nice to people but no one appreciates. im trying to talk and be more socialize but im just causing unwanted troubles. if i do things right, people never come to me and say "great job!" but when i do something wrong, "what the eff is wrong with you?" and start talking about me behind my back.

im just pissed at all this crap. i tried my best to live as someone i would love to live as. i dowanna care for a hardcore person. i dowanna study for nothing. i dowanna be like this. i dowanna be emo. im seriously out of all this shits. when people dont come to me, i wont go to people. i tried to be more caring, asking people are they okay, but in return, people call me lifeless because i cared too much. ya, im lifeless, im an unwanted bitch, im a pedo, im a cougar. call me whatever you want because im just too tired of caring. even if i shut you up, the next person will start talking about me. i dont care anymore. no matter how much i try, nothing will work as i wished.

im seriously pissed at myself. i try talking but people think im fitting in. i tried smiling but people makes me pissed. i tried caring but people call me lifeless. SO WHAT SHOULD I DO? now im gonna sit at my dark corner and start drawing circles and think that everything is my fault. i should cry alone in the dark and start smiling to people.i hate it whenever i cry, people will call me attention seeker. im just sad, okay? i dont need ur freaking attention. i dont hold my tears. i dont know how to. even if i hold back my tears, i still dont know how to smile. no one ever come to me and start saying "i'll be there for you no matter what happens" NO ONE will ever say that to me.

dont think i dont know what you guys are calling me behind my back. wan me to list them out? sure. here you go. : slut, bitch, pathetic whore, pedo, cougar, drama queen, attention seeker, trying to fit in, trying to be popular, useless bitch. why? because, I DIN DO ANYTHING TO YOU BUT U JUST JUDGE ME WITHOUT KNOWING THE WHOLE EFFING STORY AND YOU HATE ME LIKE THAT. but its okay. i dont care. this is karma. karma is being a bitch to me. everything is being a bitch to me. YOU, are also being a bitch to me. i just hate all this. i wanna tell someone about my problems but no one will ever listen.

and guess what?

AFTER I POST THIS, PEOPLE WILL CALL ME ATTENTION SEEKER. TRUST ME, IT'LL HAPPEN.

fml.

we'll be alright.

In my previous post, the story was interesting kan? my friend wrote it ^^ her name is Michelle Siew Wei Keng :D this is the second part.

我们开始想我们的名字。当我们想到头脑要爆炸的时候，我的妹妹---凯丽却想到了一个好主意。他说不如我们全部人就姓安吧！！！凯丽想到的这个主意蛮不错的，那时我们的头脑就像有个电泡着亮了。我们想到了各自的名字，泳雯就是(安子熙)，维芯(安唯末)，淑玲(安紫颜)，凯丽(安紫韵)和我(安小涵)。然后，就开始想我们的样子。我们一致确定用TVB女生的样子来作为我们的新样子，泳雯(廖碧兒)，维芯(杨怡)，淑玲(钟嘉欣)，凯丽(陳法拉)和我(佘詩曼)。我们写好了就给博士。

博士就帮我们换上了他们的样子。首先，我们都确的怪怪的，不过久而久之就习惯了。过后，博士就帮我们打针，这支针不是普通的针，博士说打了这支针我们的力量会变大。不过，我们打了这支针很不舒服似的，但是博士说是这样的。有一个晚上，我和姐妹们觉得很闷，一边讲话一边听歌，也不知不觉的经过博士的实验室，看到博士在插支针在一个僵尸的手上，我们觉得怪怪的就冲进去。博士看到这样的情况也喃喃自语的说：“也瞒不了多久”。我和维芯看到不对劲，就拿起身边的小刀子想博士哪指去还一口同声的说：“你在讲什么”。博士说：“我不是有心瞒你们的”。

在我们的‘严刑逼供’下，他终於说出真相了。。。。。(到底是什么真相呢？？？下回在继续吧！！！)

i translate it again :)

We began to think of our names. When we think till our mind is going to explode, my sister --- Kelly has thought a good idea. She said that our surname will be put as "An"! ! ! Kelly's idea was very good, then suddenly we all had an idea.We named ourselves as: Yong Wen is (An Zi Xi), the Wei Xin (An Wei Mo), Shu-Ling (AnZi Yan), Kelly (An Zi Yun) and I (An Xiao han). Then, we begin to think of how we should look. We agreed on a set like girls with TVB as our new look, Yong Wen (Bernice Liu ), Wei Xin (Yang Yi), Shu-Ling (Linda Chung), Kelly (Fala Chen) and I (Charmaine Sheh). After we finish writing our names and looks, we hand it to the Ph.D.

the Ph.D. put on their looks for us. First, we felt a little strange and uncomfortable of our looks, but after a while, we got used to it. After that, the Ph.D. gave us injections. This jab is not an ordinary Jab, the Ph.D said after we intake this jab, we will be more stronger physically. However, we feel very uncomfortable after the jab, but Dr. said its meant to be like this. One night, my sisters and I felt bored. so we were talking and listening to songs, but also unknowingly we passed-by the laboratory of Ph.D. and saw the Ph. Dr. inserted needles in the hands of a zombie, we feel weird about it ran inside. Seeing this situation, Ph. Dr. muttered, said: "also can not conceal how long." Wei Xin and I sense something is wrong , then we took a small knife and pointed against the Ph.D and asked: "What did you just say?." Dr. said: "I didnt mean to lie to you."

by using our 'torturing way', he finally tell us the truth. . . . .

(what will be the truth in the end??? Continue it next time!!!)

dont you find this story interesting? haha see you soon (:

听你说，听你说，我们同时拥有一个真心的朋友.

my friend told me a weird and realistic dream of hers. i wanna share it cuz i find it real cute xD

"嗨，不知道是梦还是什么呢？？？每天都在幻想着如果，明年真的有世界末日的话。。我们会怎样呢！！！不过，我确的怪怪的。。我每天都在幻想着，应该不会发梦的吧！！难道这是所谓的‘日有所思，夜有所梦’。我梦见到，我们没有死而被一个博士救了，带我们到另外一个星球----火星。还帮我们建立了一个完美的世界，就像以前一样。不过，有一个条件，那就是他要所有在读着书的同学帮他的忙。

在这段期间，我们接受不同的挑战，他要我们做成一位文武双全的人。他说会选那一位比较厉害，帮他做事。已经到了比赛那一天，我看到全部人都很怕。我看到一个又一个，一个又一个 ，终於到我了，我也很怕偶。。我跟那个同学打到你死我活我的。我看到了那个同学很辛苦的，所以我给他赢了。。我的好姐妹凯丽看到我这样就过来安慰我。。我就跟他说：其实我是给他赢的，我看到他那么辛苦。结果，我所说的话，给博士听到了。博士很欣赏我，也说我的文武很好，可以帮他做事，还要认我为干女。还说那个女生不要帮博士。

能够帮到博士的只有五位，永雯(我的姐姐)，淑玲(我的家姐)，薇芯(我的阿姐)，凯丽(我的妹妹)还有我。博士说去帮他做事要用其他的名字偶。。。"

Lemme translate it using google translate.. i edited some :)

"Hey, i do not know whether is this a dream or what? ? ? i everyday imagine that, if next year is really the end of the world. . What will we do! ! ! However, I felt weird. . I imagined it every day, im not suppose to be dreaming of it! ! Is this so-called 'thinking of it in the day, dreaming of it in the night'. I dreamed that we didnt die but a Ph.D. saved us instead, and took us to another planet ---- Mars. He also helped us set up a perfect world, just as before. However, there is one condition, that is, every students that are studying now have to help him.

During this period, we have to accept different challenges, he wants us to be a civil and military people. He said he would choose that one that is more powerful, to help him do things. and it has come to the game that day, I saw all the people are very afraid. I saw one after another, one after another, and finally my turn, and I was afraid too. the student and I were competing really hard. I saw that the student fighting very hard, so I let her win. . I see my good sister Kelly came over to comfort me so. . I told him: In fact, I let her win, and I see her fighting for it so hard. As result, I have said, to hear Dr..Dr. appreciate me, said my good civil and military, can help him do things, but also recognize me as god -daughter. Dr. said that the other girl do not need to help.

there's only five people that can help the Ph.D. , which are Yong Wen (my older sister), Shu-Ling (my older sister), Wei-pin (my sister), Kelly (my younger sister) and me. we need to use other names to help the Ph.D."

our different names will be:

安子熙- An Zi xi (Yong Wen)

安小涵- An Xiao Han (Wei Keng)

安紫韵- An Zi Yun (me, Kelly)

安紫颜- An Zi Yan (Nichole)

安唯末- An Wei Mo (Wei Xin)

haha! i wonder will this ever come true :P

if its the end of the world next year, i would really go to Mars with ^ them :D

love ya!

Friends are angels sent by God to us. (:

You can count on me like 1,2,3,

I can count on you like 4,3,2.

Im lucky to have so many friends to be by my side when i needed them (:

thanks a lot! all of you! everyone of you that helped me,

even if its a small little thing,

i will still appreciate!

thank you all so much (:

for today, i wanna thank..

Jazlynn :D

thanks for cheering me up today :)

im so lucky to have you by my side when i needed you :)

Im really lucky,

a very very very lucky girl.

i have so many friends around me.

when im sad, they cheer me up,

when im happy, they laugh with me :D

We speak sarcasticly,

but who cares? thats what friends are for! ^^

You all rock my world.

THANKS!

may our friendship last FOREVER~ :D

9.10.11: Talking to the moon ; if you like it you should've put a ring on it

9.10.11- Moon Halo

Credits to Michelle Siew for taking this pic for me. (:

I requested it (:

tonight's moon.

Its just so awesome.

its so pretty, so beautiful.

so many nice things happen today (:

a special date with a special moon ^^

on twitter,

everyone is talking about the moon.

there's 2 tweets that are about the moon i find funny xD

its my title too, yo!

"Okay Bruno , i think thats enough. No more talking to the moon. Look what you've done"

"Everyone's talking about the moon... IF YOU LIKE IT THEN YOU SHOULD'VE PUT A RING ON IT."

Haha! xD

so awesome kan? xD

i wanna see the moon la.

im one of the unlucky kid that dont get to see the moon tonight. :x

i think i will have a good night sleep tonight ^^

oh, i wanna thank someone that made me feel better tonight ^^

Thanks, You made me feel better (:

you knw who you are ^^

sweet dreams.

<3

Chatime, Uptown.

My Favourite Place to go at Uptown :) and my favourite drink there is...

ROASTED MILK TEA! :D

(with pearls ;D )

this is my friend's favourite flavor :) -Pearl Milk Tea

everyone prefer milk tea than roasted milk tea. but i suka roasted milk tea more xDD im going to buy another one after finals, or maybe before finals. see when can la (:

if you havent try it, YOU REALLY SHOULD! ;D its reallllllllllllllyyyyyyyyy awesome! especially Roasted Milk Tea :) you can try pearl milk tea if you wan. ^^

enjoy your milk tea/ roasted milk tea :P

see ya! <3

i'll always remember you.

Acha- Super Junior is kinda noisy though ><

and sooo sorry but its KINDA annoying ><

hehh guess what?

the sky is having mood swings nowww :D

for while very bright, for while very dark.

had a very nice dream yesterday.

dream of my grandma's house,

my best friend, DU-rians :D,

my friends that i havent seen in a while. xD

such a nice dream,

until the phone call woke me up :P

i din pick up though. was too tired xD

i have to do the laundry now.

ciaooo :D

你还是要幸福，你千万不要再招惹别人哭.

恭喜我的ex朋友，

她和他在一起了。

但我已经不能再祝福她。

对不起；没用了。

刚刚无端端下起了雨.

我很想和他，真心喜欢的他，

一起淋雨.

在这个下雨天，

我不是想起你，而是他.

人都需要自己的空间.

事情过了，就没事了.

我的生活还蛮像剧情的.

我就是这场戏的女主角.

我要坚强.

不管以后会怎样.

Okay, wanted to upload a pic,

but then i accidentally deleted something,

now it cant function adi -.-

AJKSEHNFDJKAS;LH!!

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pissed at my camera -.-

lazy to post la. what the.

urrrrrrgggggggggggggggh. T.T

没那么简单.

没那麽简单 就能找到 聊得来的伴
尤其是在 看过了那麽多的背叛
总是不安 只好强悍
谁谋杀了我的浪漫

没那麽简单 就能去爱 别的全不看
变得实际 也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单 一久也习惯
不用担心谁 也不用被谁管

感觉快乐就忙东忙西
感觉累了就放空自己
别人说的话 随便听一听 自己做决定
不想拥有太多情绪
一杯红酒配电影
在周末晚上 关上了手机 舒服窝在沙发里

相爱没有那麽容易 每个人有他的脾气
过了爱做梦的年纪 轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那麽容易 才会特别让人着迷
什麽都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心 所以最开心 曾经

想念最伤心 但却最动心 的记忆

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这首歌里，

有几句都是我想表达的...

"没那麽简单 就能找到 聊得来的伴

尤其是在 看过了那麽多的背叛 "

-友情也是酱。今天讲是朋友，明天就会背叛你。在你背后讲你是非。人要活在现实，放下过去。

"没那麽简单 就能去爱 别的全不看 "

- 我们的年纪相差一年，你知道吗？这心结，是打不开的，知道吗？就算你怎么疼我，年级有问题就是有问题。我很在乎，知道吗？

"不爱孤单 一久也习惯

不用担心谁 也不用被谁管"

-我真得很孤单。蛮久了，我也累了。也习惯了。我不想再担心朋友会离开我了，我也不想被别人管了。我自己生活就让我坐我想做的好吗？别在我背后刺我一刀了。很痛苦，知道吗？

"感觉快乐就忙东忙西

感觉累了就放空自己"

-感觉快乐，就该做很多事情，忘掉一切。累了，就别做了。躺在床上，假装睡觉。

"别人说的话 随便听一听 自己做决定 "

-他们要说什么，轮不到我来管。他们说了，听了就算。要不要改变自己，自己决定吧。

"相爱没有那麽容易 每个人有他的脾气；轰轰烈烈不如平静 "

-我和你，是很难能在一起的。我们克服了年龄的障碍，为什么你还是不了解我？你有你的脾气，我也有啊！算了。我们也很少吵架了，我们已经有好几天没说话了，也该忘了.

"想念最伤心 但却最动心 的记忆"

-我很想你，真的。虽然我和他在一起了，但我心还是想你的！我一直以来都是爱你的。为什么你不明白？为什么你不会对我说你也喜欢我？为什么你要我在这里乱猜？我知道你也喜欢我。因为我也很喜欢你，傻瓜，你知道吗？):

Just for once, I want to fall for someone that will be there to catch me.

Lol its October at my Blog Archive already.

i think i have to update more?

but im lack of things to blog about.

oh oh,

i have a few friends that lose someone really important to them.

as in like, pass away. ><

sorry for reminding you guys the pain again though ><

its hard to describe how it feels.

its just. pain..

all you can do is cry.

and cry and cry.

because i knw my grandma, my parents,

wont be around until i leave the world.

i love my grandma, and my parents.

one day if they leave me,

all i can do is, cry and cry and cry.

but i will stand up,

do something that they will feel proud about.

i will be someone better in life.

i will study hard.

i wan my family to be proud of me.

i dont care about how much people hate me.

as long as i made my family proud,

by studying, or anything that they think i can do to make them proud,

enough already.

I'd go back in time and change it, but i cant.

saw my bestie today <3

nothing went well today -.-

today is bad luck day -.-

dont feel like talking about it.

or you really wanna knw?

I PUT MY PENCIL IN MY BAG.

I DONT HAVE PENCIL TO COLOUR THE OBJECTIVE PAPER -.-

i only have an eraser and a box of lead.

so i poke my lead on my eraser,

then can colour adi xD

smart? xD NO. IM NOT -.-

damn embarrassing.

everyone use pencil,

i use eraser pulak -.-

the eff. damn unlucky today.

so many things on my head.

Moral definisi, him, her, they, we, myself,

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH -.-

不甘心，不闪躲。

omg i cant memorize any moral definisi T.T

but the problem is,

no one's gonna ask me the definisi when im working :P

so whats the point?

Moral is ur attitude,

not about definitions :)

if someone just broke up,

dont remind them about it or ask them what happen.

they dowanna anyone to remind them the pain.

seriously.

hey, realize my blog not much emo posts? :D

i realize too (:

because... Vi Nie made me not-so-emo anymore :D

thanks Vi Nie <3

and thanks Steffie, for cheering me up today (:

i promise i'll give u the free drink xD <3

"if you cant be happy, try making others happy. seeing others happy will definitely make you happy."

(:

-try it. it seriously works. (:

see ya, readers (:

当初彼此,不够成熟坦白.

如果我能把生命捐出去，

我一定会。

这世界上有更多人比我更会珍惜生命.

而我，

正在浪费上帝给我的生命。

上帝，

给我死后复生一次好吗？

因为我还不知道生命的可贵。

我很笨，

真的。

我有健全的身体，思想，

我还有父母，哥哥，弟弟，

一家大小都在。

朋友，

都超数了。

已经比应有的数目多出很多了。

钱财，

我不用理。

学业，

不卓越也不差。

还好。

生理需求、依靠、智慧、电脑、朋友、钱财方面，

齐了啊。

王凯丽，

你醒醒好吗？

你已经很幸福了，

不要身在福中不知福。

别人要的，

你都有了..

朋友多几个不多，

少几个不少。

真的全校讨厌你吗？

没有吗？

那你闭嘴！

不准再垂头丧气了！

抬头，别让眼泪滴下来。

不要哭。

闹够了吗？

够了的话，就读书，

重新做人。

你不是想别人看到你的笑容而笑的吗？

你不是要让身边的人都快乐的吗？

证明啊！

不要闹了。成熟点吧！

this time im not leaving without you.

Today is Seni and PJK exam.

Satisfied with my Hasil Seni.

Very nice effect of colours ^^

then studied a bit sejarah.

then tembak through PJK.

im watching drama.

but cant now cuz i need to study sejarah T.T

this is the place where i watch drama.

http://www.mysoju.com/browse/drama/

imma watch after exams! ^^

GAMBATEH,

KELLY!

xDD

Gambateh,

all my friends (:

loves! xoxo

And we're looking for something dumb to do..

Changed my blogger layout to a simple one.

im a very lazy template designer ya know xD

Wanted to start my day by sharing my mood with all you readers (:

but i failed.. xD

GOOD LUCK TO MY FORM 3 FRIENDS! ♥

Get straight A's adi belanja me yah ;D

Studying.

Why is my title so normal today?

cuz of studying (:

i need to study sejarah adi.

if you find ur book boring and u're on the computer 24/7,

why not study online?

go to this blog i found on google :D

its a class that make it.

they are so awesome xD

this is for form 2 sejarah.

http://classof-2hormat-sejarah.blogspot.com

this is form 1 sejarah. made by dunno who :P

http://sejarahtingkatan1.blogspot.com

if you wanna spend time playing,

why not just go read?

its like notes on our book,

just thatits online ^^

okay, have to study adi.

ciao!

So sad but true, for me there's only you.

Is my English that bad? :/

I think i have to type out the whole words already.

i cannot use short forms for blog posts or while on facebook.

i need to use perfect grammar for typing from now on.

JUST JOKING! :D

my English is bad,

i cant change it. (:

Gosh.

i'll be having German exam.

so long din go adi.

forgot almost all weih ><"

nevermind la, fail then fail lo.

i also din expect to gain experience in German language,

and i never planned to go Germany -.-

exams are around the corner.

the timetable for exam looks normal.

but then i feel kinda scared though :/

Im gonna draw Butterflies and Flowers for Art exam! :DD

how awesome is that? jokes xD

well,

i think i will blog next time.

i have nothing to blog now :P

ciao! <3