when you walk away, i count the steps that you take.

lol i think im running out of titles to post ><
damn hard to think weih :/
ahahah exams are near.
AND AND IM FINALLY OVER THE GUYS I LIKED.
YES. GUYS.
not one. three :/
THEY TREAT ME TOO GOOD.
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just to keep my blog not that bored,
imma post 100 random things about me xD
okay.. here goes nothing..

100 random things about me
1. Im a girl
2. i have long hair
3. i have single eye-lids.
4. im emo but hyper sometimes ^^
5. im a St. John-er
6. i dislike noisy musics.
7. I LOVE KYUHYUN :D
8. Jonghyun is my ex. xDD
9. i hate dramatic peoples.
10. i do stuff by myself

11. i love being alone
12. when i like someone, i mean it.
13. exams are near. i din study yet.
14. i never study, actually xD
15. i have facebook.
16. i find Super Junior's Lee SungMin really cute ^^
17. i think Sunny in SNSD is acting cute :/
18. i dislike Yoona
19. i have 3 brothers
20. im boy-ish

21. i love reading novels. (ESPCIALLY CHINESE ONES.)
22. i love seeing hawt guys xD (every girl does, okay? IM NORMAL xD)
23. i coupled once before only.
24. currently not having relationship problems
25. my right thumb hurts now when i try to hit space bar
26. i love drinking water
27. im bored
28. i love my friends
29. i need a webcam
30. i wan DSLR camera shooo badly

31. im planning a suprise bday party for HIM xD
32. I dont think justin bieber is gay
33. i think super junior guys are super cute except ryeowook. no doubt :/
34. my handphone doesnt have enuf credit for me to text anyone ==
35. i love guys that talk to me first xD
36. i think i love guys that act cool xD
37. if a guy treats me good, there's no such thing as "looks" anymore xD
38. really really dislike ppls that talks bad about me
39. hates ppls that spread rumours saying i like cong or iqbal ==
40. cong and iqbal are JUST my close friends.

41. Cass and Hwei are cute friends xD
42. Hwei always confuse me during maths class :DD
43. 2 Kiambang paling best xD
44. i have sot sot friends xD
45. i love vin, steff and jy
46. i love Yong Wen
47. im not les
48. i have nothing better to do
49. i have weird personality
50. im not perfect

51. i love bball
52. i hate lan ci ppl
53. i hate ppl that doesnt appreciate food
54. i'll clear everything on the plate even how bad it taste
55. i hate rumours
56. i hate gossips UNLESS its necessary :D
57. i hate lala mui
58. i hate ppl that acts as if everyone likes him/her
59. i have short term memory (THIS IS BLOODY IMPORTANT. xD)
60. i dont check my mails

61. OUTING PLANS ALWAYS FAIL.
62. miss my old school
63. i wonder how bitchy a bitch can be :/
64. I HATE T_ _ _ _ A (:
65. what's a taco?
66. I WAN SOMEONE TO TEACH ME HOW TO PLAY SA.
67. how does it feels like going to jail? (:
68. i feel like killing people now.
69. i wonder how ppl without life feel so desperate to live for another day but we dont even appreciate ours. ==
70. IM A TRAINEE COUNSELOR :D JOKING. (:

71. IM HUNGRY D:
72. IM BORED
73. IM SLEEPY. NOT
74. IM HYPER
75. IM SHOO HYPER NOW
76. shit. i just remember i have Chinese society tmrw =="
77. aaaahhh i dont think i can make it till 100!
78. WHAT IS 1+1? xD
79. yes, im stupid :D
80. i hate ppl swearing

81. i dont swear often so yeah
82. i love money. NOT.
83. no one can replace HIM in my heart xD
84. I JUST LOVED SOMEONE AND I HAVENT TELL ANYONE ABOUT HIM YET (Y)
85. IM SERIOUSLY HUNGRY D:
86. lol can i count down?
87. ahahha the answer is no :/
88. MY STOMACH IS EMPTY
89. ahahahaha im random
90. i feel so random :D

91. i have favourite "slogan"
92. it is called..
93. FINE~ BE THAT WAY.
94. SHINee :D
95. SUPER JUNIOR.
96. KPOP
97. LOLLIPOP
98. DUNNO WHAT TO POP. =='
99. YAY ALMOST 100.
100. SUDAH 100.

KTHANKSBYE

everything that i do, reminds me of you.

FML FML FML FML FML FML FML
FML FML FML FML FML FML FML
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the guy i liked coupled.
my pet bro doesnt wanna talk to me.
now the one that talks to me says im annoying.

FML.
FML.
FML.
FML.
FML.
FML.
FML.

now what am i gonna do?
why do i even bother to cry?
WHY THE F AM I CRYING?

NO ONE CARES.
LIVE ON.
BITCH.

when we're on the phone and he talks real slow.

The guy i always wanted.

level 1 [personalities]:
1. flirty: of course not...
2. caring: yeah of course! xD
3. sporty: of course! especially bball <3
4. emotional: no way man ==
5. cute: cute can but not too cute until the whole world snatch him lah xD
6. socialize: ahah can also ^^

level 2 [looks]:
1. dimples: ahaha can also xD but he would look really adorable :D
2. eyes: not too big and not too small xD
3. smile: if he smiles for me, then its consider a good smile lahh xD
4. piercings: lol no thanks.
5. height: taller than me then okay di xD or 173-175cm <3
6. hair: up to him lah xD

level 3 [for you, i would have done what ever]:
list down 10 things you want him/ her to have/be:
1. the smile that always shine xD
2. never asks why am i sad, just makes me happy every moment.
3. calls/ text/ talks to me first
4. never be embarrass to tell everyone that he is in a relationship with me ^^
5. gives me space when i need them, follows me when i want him to.

ahhaah lol there's 8 levels but i lazy to do di lahh xDD

if i let you go, i would never know, how my life would be, holding you close to me.

i think im over you :/

at first i dowanna like you,
now i dowanna be over you.

i wanna wait.
and i really want you.

when you talk to me today,
i din have any feelings at all.

we talked alot.
seriously.

i just dont get it.
why do you wanna go for a girl,
that you dont even talk to in school.
but not the one,
standing infront of you everyday,
smiling to you,
talk about everything,
and watching every steps of what you do?

im not perfect.
no one is.

even if the whole world turns aways from you,
even if the whole world hates you,
even if no one is standing up for you,
even if no

i dowan you to break any of your video games for me. i want you to teach me how to play so i can share the joy with you.

24.2.11
damn kanasai.
morning wake up,
damn pissed off already.
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dont know who to talk to.
damn bloody pissed off lah today.

i didnt wanna think about boys wan.
damn bored of that topic di.

i wan a friend that talks to me about life,
not about boys.
but if isnt for boys,
what else will they talk about? :/

haha,
epic fail.

im damn bored lahh..

i wanna fake my death and see who cares.
ahah i bet no one will care (:
cuz im just so bored,
i felt like dying xD

lol there's nothing to do on the net.

i wish i can bloody get my webcam and mic.
so i can actually DO SOMETHING on the net. ==

SO F***ING BORING.
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i love you forever. even if it takes a life time for you to forget her, i'll still be waiting there for you. forever.

LOL I WAS BORED AND I HAVE NTH BETTER TO DO

so sad but true, for me there's only you.

NOT FEELING WELL -.-

what the eff right?

22.2.11

best+worst day of my life? o.0

Talk to hwei and cass today. damn fun ^^

hwei writing novel! xD *applause*

i wrote my novel too.

mine is in chinese, hwei's wan is english de.

well,

today got KH ==

but damn fun cuz got project to do xD

lol i effing dunno what to do weih

got the thing that makes the metal melt wan,

damn scared.

its like freaking hot weih

then after KH,

Kye Koko come look for me xD

he naughty ohhh~

he pull my hair ><"

then i pull his hair also xD

(i knw u are reading this xD)

then its Seni.

seni boring loh...

got notes.

then recess,

i wanted to go recess with that girl,

but then she went to snatch my other friends ==

and she is like acting innocent.

and she told my friends i ditch her!

WTF.

then is Sivik.

FREAKING BORING WEIH.

got that bloody class work.

i do finish already,

teacher only say do in table style.

I'VE ALREADY DONE IT AND YOU'RE ASKING ME TO REDO?

damn pissed but then i just got over it...

andrea and yong wen looked for me xD

and so does Amanda.

then jian wei and cong walk down..

pass by me..

jian wei said he cant be a pengawas :(

damn sad weih...

i wish pn. shariah let him be lahh...

then is BM.

BM copy notes and do bina ayat ==

BINA AYAT IS FOR KIDS.

BUT I STILL DUNNO HOW TO BINA:

ANDAINYA,

MESKIPUN

NAMUN

wtf epic fail ==

then last period.

gotong royong.

went to dahlia and look for vin.

told her about some problems.

then i gotta go back cuz Pn. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _,

is gonna PMS soon ==

so its like darn boring.

i din do anything at all ^^

ahahaha.

oh oh!

I GOT ST.JOHN CAMP! xD

Zhan Meng is camp commander :DDDD

April 8-10,

ST. JOHN CAMP.

DONT MISS ME! xD

CANT WAIT TILL CAMP (Y)

and and,

cant wait till tmrw st. john meeting xD

SHINee FTW! xD

its just another day, in a unpredictable way.

today,
woke up at 10:30am,
walk to sin yoon seng to buy sketch book,
but the shop din open.
lol waddahell..? ==

then i walk back home.
leg cramping.
cuz of rumah sukan.

then went to school at 12pm,
then talk to Yong Wen,
then walk out the dewan with Steff,
go bookshop buy sketch book.

talk to nichole and wei kheng.
best conversation ever.
speaked in cantonese

then perhimpunan.
then went back class.

KH time,
walk down the stairs,
torturing like hell.
stupid muscle cramp -.-'
very dizzy.

then after KH,
seni.

then after seni,
recess.
went to library.

after recess,
went back class.
Sivik.

then after sivik,
BM.
it was a perfect day (:
not until karangan spoiled my mood -.-'

today josh ask me to change place with him,
temporary lahh..
then i thought he wants to talk to hwei,
i din know he was testing me..
and beside him was cong.
so its like damn awkward -.-'

everyone now misunderstanding..
just wanna interact with friend,
a boy..
then everyone thought we have feelings for each other.
waddahell? ==
i dont okay..
i dont.
and so does he.

so shut up lah

i wish you would understand.

when you looked at me,
i was really happy.
but i dont think you know.
i hope you understand.

i dowanna care about how you feel,
i dowanna worry about anything,
i dowanna care about how u look at me,
i dowanna care about you.

but somehow, i cant.
i just cant.

its like there's nothing for us to talk at all..
i always wanted to let you know,
but you just.. haizz :(

hold my hand, walk till the end.

ahhh~
its 2:15am in the morning~
im really bored,
and sleepy ><

i wanna talk to him~
but he is not on..

i wonder is he going to school on mon..
i hope so :/
gosh i miss him~

the only thing im thinking of,
is you~
forever you <3

Happy happy CNY, happy happy you and I.

Its like the 3rd day of CNY.
it feels more boring than ever.

text adrian and iqbal.
adrian din text back.. so its okay..
iqbal watching some vid,
so din text back much..

then chat with Zi Yi,
and Miki thru FB.

now chatting with Ben ben thru fb..

lol boring lahh~ ><

I wanna fly,
high in the sky,
watch me fly,
away from your sight <3

never seek for your existance.

its been 3 days i havent been talking to you.
i really miss talking to you.
i wish u could text me first.
i wish u could talk to me first..

i hope that tmrw wont be awkward..
i want you to knw that,
i really like you.

but its alright.
you dont know better than you know (:

i hope you would understand.
i hope this feeling will just fade away.
im suffering from this love problems.
i dowan it.
bring it away from me,
take it away from me..

she must be beautiful, the girl he talks about.

I've tried to think that,
why am i not her?
i wish i was her.
i wish you know that i love you.
i wish its just really simple.

if i just tell you that "i like you"
and we can be together forever,
it would be great, right?

its just so simple,
yet complicated.

i wish you were here right now.
right beside me.

you dont have to tell me
"i love you" every night,
you dont have to say sorry for your mistakes,
you dont have to fake ur smile,
you dont have to kiss me or hug me,
you dont have to tell me lies.
you just have to make me understand,
make me smile,
make me feel loved.

thats all.
its just all i want.

i want you for valentines. <3

and i just cant believe we aint together.

26.1.11
the day i realise i like you <3

now its like the 9th day i like you (:
but i din talk to you for a whole day.
yesterday,
we din talk to each other at all.
today,
i wanted to talk to you,
but you weren't on.
when im on,
u're off.
when im off,
u're on.

whenever i tried to make myself get over you,
it wouldnt happen.
but since i knw you like someone else,
that weird feeling in my heart,
tells me to like you,
to get you before her.
but also the same time,
to forget you like nothing happened before.

i hope you can just wake up,
and realise that i have feelings for you.
dont you understand?
i thought its kinda obvious already..
but i din expect you to be blur.

i really want you to know.
but it'll hurt if u dont have the same feeling towards me,
though.

i wanna knw the answer.
but im scared to face it.

its alright.
im over it.
im over you..

You ought to know by now how much i love you

Its weird when i need to knw the truth,
when i knw it hurts.
I ask you whether am i lame or stupid.
you said yes.
in the indirect way.

i was hurt but same time,
im glad to knw.
I've lost hope when you told me u liked another girl.
i havent been dreaming of u,
since the day u told me,
u liked someone else.

i wanna hide from u,
i wanna hint you.
you just dont know anything..
at all.

i love you so much.
you just dont understand.
my mood swings because of you.
when im sad,
i think of ur smile,
i'll smile.

when im happy,
i'll think of you.
i wish you were there,
smiling with me.

but you will never ever know.

i thought you were the only one.
i wish this feeling would just fade away.

everytime,
i get close to you,
i will fall for you harder.
but when i talk to you,
i know,
im just another girl you talk to.

im not important to you at all.
i understand.

im sorry to not let go of you.
you might be blur or confuse.
when i tried to hint you,
you never get it.
you thought i was just talking or joking.
but i aint fooling around.

i just want you to hug me,
tell me you love me too.

but i was wrong about it.
i was right about u liked someone else.

i hate it when you tell me you liked her.
i hope you understands.
even just for 1 second <3