so much memories.
where is the delete button?
i wanna delete those useless memories.
and also those useless people in my life.
i wanna be happy.
i dowanna emo all the time.
i can barely smile.
i cant even laugh till stomach cramps.
im sad.
im really sad.
i shouldnt have go look at your official page.
i shouldnt have looked at stuff that hurts me.
i shouldnt have treated you as my forever.
i din know who you are eversince that day we argued.
i never wanna have another arguement again.
because,
there is 8 planets,
and there is 6 Billion people on earth,
but i've met you.
first few months,
we were like forever.
but after that,
we all changed.
i never wanna trust friendships anymore.
there aren't true friends in secondary.
i dont know why,
but i have a feeling that something's not gonna be right.
maybe its because you are with her now.
maybe its because both of you have the same topic.
but we dont anymore.
but now,
i dont get it,
why should i even care?
maybe its because i used to be your only one.
maybe its because you leaved me alone,
let you go hurts,
but holding you without your heart,
hurts more.
let you go, fly to her.
fly to another planet with her.
im out of this friendship.
im alright.
i'll be alone when school re-opens.
i'll keep my tears in my eyes.
i'll keep my mouth shut.
i'll get myself out between both of you.
i'll never say how important friends are to me.
i'll let go of you.
i'll let myself look happy eventhough i dont have you.
i'll keep myself happy and never letting anyone knows that who hurts me.
its all because,
both of you are important to me.
the six of us might separate next year.
if there only can be five person in the same class,
i will be the sixth person.
i'll go different class.
what's happening?
what is wrong with me?
i dont know.
i wont let anyone know who you are.
cuz both of you are important to me.
Cassandra,
thanks for being so nice to me throughout the whole year. remember that "boom"? that made us become BFFs. well, we barely even talk to each other now but i think you are still my BFF right?
Hwei Xin,
thanks for being my friend. thanks for counseling me when im sad. but now you cant counsel me anymore. because we barely even talk to each other. well, i bet you are still having K-pop fever with cassandra..
Xin Wey,
haha, lol. why do i even wanna write message to you? i know you are not even reading. hahaha! but its alright. i just want you to know, at least you've made me smile in school. thanks for being so lame. well, see you next year.
Daphne,
thank you for being there for me whenever i needed you. but we might not be together next year. i'll miss your sweet smile and your tuition notes. haha...
Niki,
i was kinda shock when you ask me whether i like him.. but i dont. he still have feelings for you. so accept him if you still loves him. thanks for counseling me when i have problems. eventhough we always argue but we end up saying sorry to each other and become friends again. well, thanks.
[my parents asked me,
next time when they success in the project at penang,
then they are shifting there.
they ask me whether i wanna go.
should i go or should i stay?
too much bad memories here..
i think i should start all over again.
when i reach there,
im changing blog URL, facebook account,
email address, handphone number
and everything that can contact me.
i wanna start a new life and
i wanna forget everything that happens here.
i hope it works for deleting my old memories.
i was thinking of changing my identity.
but hmm.. well, i'll still be Kelly Ong.
well, yeah. i might be changing facebook acc and MSN.
but i think i'll just delete those people i dowanna keep in contact with.
yay.. im going some where else.
im happy that i dont have to face all these stupid problems anymore.]
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