if you want a good mother, first you must be a good daugther.

Today,
how should i express?
Well,
Today is such a wonderful sad day.

sad or wonderful things first?
step by step.
start the whole story and you,
yourself,
judge whether which part is sad, or happy.

Well,
stayed in school from 6:45am till 6:45pm.
yes, 12 hours.
luckily in the morning got Wei Xin.
If not i bored till death di~

met a new form 1 girl,
Richeal, or sumthing like that..
but her chinese name is Wei Ling.. gua? :O

played at bball court.
unhappy stuff happened.
skip.

then went back to canteen,
saw Wei and Rine.
then bought my garlic bread + white sauce.
then talk to Wei and Rine.

told them alot of bottom-heart stories.
"dont blame others for what you dont have,
blame yourself for not affording them by your own hands."
"if you want a good mother, first you must be a good daughter."

the two sentence above,
is what i told Rine and Wei about.
its everything about what we talk for an hour plus.

German class,
saw Xin wey.
she went upstairs and came downstairs to wait for me.
[so good... :') ]
then saw Daphne.
she cut bangs.
went to the toilet to "save" her hair for her.
clipped and tied properly so it doesnt look funny.

at least she likes it :)

in german class,
told Daphne a few bottom-heart secrets.
yeah,
great talk.

then after german class,
saw hwei and cass.
then din really talk to them..

went back to class.
Emo-ed.
din talk to hwei and cass for 3 moral periods.
counseled Rine during moral class.
she's kinda upset.
cant tell why. promised her.

then sejarah,
did some class work.
copied my bro's previous works.
2 wrongs.
talk to hwei.

then almost recess,
talk to cass cuz of the sejarah teacher.
collected our books,
give them back,
and ask us to walk back infront to pass up again.

then recess,
alone.

saw melissa bringing cupcakes.
so ask for 1.
nice :)
then ate mac & cheese.
RM3.
Yi Hang and bro came up to me,
ask why am i alone.

told them i enjoy being alone.
then they went out of the school.
then rubinny, joyce,
ask me am i bailed by my friends.
i told them i enjoy being alone.

bell rang,
went back to class alone.
emo-ed.
Cheng Wey asked what happen.
told him nth happen.
Batrisyia ask.
told her the same thing.
Tracia came in my class,
ask me too.
i said nth.
just enjoy being alone.

[SERIOUSLY, MY FRIENDS DIN BAIL OR DITCH ME. I JUST CHOOSE TO BE ALONE. thanks for the concern ;) ]

My friends were really great.
they want me to join them,
but i just refuse to.
they are really kind, nice, friendly...

especially Wei, Rine,
Daphne, Xin Wey, hwei,
Cass...

well,
im not perfect.
they might not like me.

i tried to change.
just cant.
im such a failure.

well,
DONT THINK IM MISERABLE.
i can counsel others,
i can do the same to myself.
but in a different way.
im not sad, nor miserable or alone.
i just choose to be.

getting hurt by yourself,
is better than facing the betrayal of your best friend.