You ought to know by now how much i love you

Its weird when i need to knw the truth,
when i knw it hurts.
I ask you whether am i lame or stupid.
you said yes.
in the indirect way.

i was hurt but same time,
im glad to knw.
I've lost hope when you told me u liked another girl.
i havent been dreaming of u,
since the day u told me,
u liked someone else.

i wanna hide from u,
i wanna hint you.
you just dont know anything..
at all.

i love you so much.
you just dont understand.
my mood swings because of you.
when im sad,
i think of ur smile,
i'll smile.

when im happy,
i'll think of you.
i wish you were there,
smiling with me.

but you will never ever know.

i thought you were the only one.
i wish this feeling would just fade away.

everytime,
i get close to you,
i will fall for you harder.
but when i talk to you,
i know,
im just another girl you talk to.

im not important to you at all.
i understand.

im sorry to not let go of you.
you might be blur or confuse.
when i tried to hint you,
you never get it.
you thought i was just talking or joking.
but i aint fooling around.

i just want you to hug me,
tell me you love me too.

but i was wrong about it.
i was right about u liked someone else.

i hate it when you tell me you liked her.
i hope you understands.
even just for 1 second <3