its just another day, in a unpredictable way.

today,
woke up at 10:30am,
walk to sin yoon seng to buy sketch book,
but the shop din open.
lol waddahell..? ==

then i walk back home.
leg cramping.
cuz of rumah sukan.

then went to school at 12pm,
then talk to Yong Wen,
then walk out the dewan with Steff,
go bookshop buy sketch book.

talk to nichole and wei kheng.
best conversation ever.
speaked in cantonese

then perhimpunan.
then went back class.

KH time,
walk down the stairs,
torturing like hell.
stupid muscle cramp -.-'
very dizzy.

then after KH,
seni.

then after seni,
recess.
went to library.

after recess,
went back class.
Sivik.

then after sivik,
BM.
it was a perfect day (:
not until karangan spoiled my mood -.-'

today josh ask me to change place with him,
temporary lahh..
then i thought he wants to talk to hwei,
i din know he was testing me..
and beside him was cong.
so its like damn awkward -.-'

everyone now misunderstanding..
just wanna interact with friend,
a boy..
then everyone thought we have feelings for each other.
waddahell? ==
i dont okay..
i dont.
and so does he.

so shut up lah

i wish you would understand.

when you looked at me,
i was really happy.
but i dont think you know.
i hope you understand.

i dowanna care about how you feel,
i dowanna worry about anything,
i dowanna care about how u look at me,
i dowanna care about you.

but somehow, i cant.
i just cant.

its like there's nothing for us to talk at all..
i always wanted to let you know,
but you just.. haizz :(

hold my hand, walk till the end.

ahhh~
its 2:15am in the morning~
im really bored,
and sleepy ><

i wanna talk to him~
but he is not on..

i wonder is he going to school on mon..
i hope so :/
gosh i miss him~

the only thing im thinking of,
is you~
forever you <3

Happy happy CNY, happy happy you and I.

Its like the 3rd day of CNY.
it feels more boring than ever.

text adrian and iqbal.
adrian din text back.. so its okay..
iqbal watching some vid,
so din text back much..

then chat with Zi Yi,
and Miki thru FB.

now chatting with Ben ben thru fb..

lol boring lahh~ ><

I wanna fly,
high in the sky,
watch me fly,
away from your sight <3

never seek for your existance.

its been 3 days i havent been talking to you.
i really miss talking to you.
i wish u could text me first.
i wish u could talk to me first..

i hope that tmrw wont be awkward..
i want you to knw that,
i really like you.

but its alright.
you dont know better than you know (:

i hope you would understand.
i hope this feeling will just fade away.
im suffering from this love problems.
i dowan it.
bring it away from me,
take it away from me..

she must be beautiful, the girl he talks about.

I've tried to think that,
why am i not her?
i wish i was her.
i wish you know that i love you.
i wish its just really simple.

if i just tell you that "i like you"
and we can be together forever,
it would be great, right?

its just so simple,
yet complicated.

i wish you were here right now.
right beside me.

you dont have to tell me
"i love you" every night,
you dont have to say sorry for your mistakes,
you dont have to fake ur smile,
you dont have to kiss me or hug me,
you dont have to tell me lies.
you just have to make me understand,
make me smile,
make me feel loved.

thats all.
its just all i want.

i want you for valentines. <3

and i just cant believe we aint together.

26.1.11
the day i realise i like you <3

now its like the 9th day i like you (:
but i din talk to you for a whole day.
yesterday,
we din talk to each other at all.
today,
i wanted to talk to you,
but you weren't on.
when im on,
u're off.
when im off,
u're on.

whenever i tried to make myself get over you,
it wouldnt happen.
but since i knw you like someone else,
that weird feeling in my heart,
tells me to like you,
to get you before her.
but also the same time,
to forget you like nothing happened before.

i hope you can just wake up,
and realise that i have feelings for you.
dont you understand?
i thought its kinda obvious already..
but i din expect you to be blur.

i really want you to know.
but it'll hurt if u dont have the same feeling towards me,
though.

i wanna knw the answer.
but im scared to face it.

its alright.
im over it.
im over you..

You ought to know by now how much i love you

Its weird when i need to knw the truth,
when i knw it hurts.
I ask you whether am i lame or stupid.
you said yes.
in the indirect way.

i was hurt but same time,
im glad to knw.
I've lost hope when you told me u liked another girl.
i havent been dreaming of u,
since the day u told me,
u liked someone else.

i wanna hide from u,
i wanna hint you.
you just dont know anything..
at all.

i love you so much.
you just dont understand.
my mood swings because of you.
when im sad,
i think of ur smile,
i'll smile.

when im happy,
i'll think of you.
i wish you were there,
smiling with me.

but you will never ever know.

i thought you were the only one.
i wish this feeling would just fade away.

everytime,
i get close to you,
i will fall for you harder.
but when i talk to you,
i know,
im just another girl you talk to.

im not important to you at all.
i understand.

im sorry to not let go of you.
you might be blur or confuse.
when i tried to hint you,
you never get it.
you thought i was just talking or joking.
but i aint fooling around.

i just want you to hug me,
tell me you love me too.

but i was wrong about it.
i was right about u liked someone else.

i hate it when you tell me you liked her.
i hope you understands.
even just for 1 second <3