the year 2011.

Okay, this is my 3rd post for today. this can prove that how bored am i at home.

This is gonna be a long post. what i've learned in 2011. :)

The year 2011.

Full of ups and downs. Not the best year, not the worst. :)

this year, i've learnt a lot of things.

I've learned to be stronger. everyone have their sad story, im not just the only one that is crying. everyone is. i just have to overcome it, even if im alone. im a lot more stronger compared to last year.

I've learned that, if a friend ditched you, is not cuz they ditch you. is cuz we all have our own life and we have too much friends to accompany. They didnt ditch you, they just have another friend to accompany. they accompanied me for so long, so i have to let others have a chance to have someone to accompany :)

I've learned that, we shouldnt talk bad about other people behind their backs. Just because they talk bad about you, doesnt mean u have to talk bad about them. Honestly, i did talk bad about lots of people behind their backs. Now, i've learned that its something stupid and immature. This is not dedicated to anyone. is just that i dont think gossiping is nice you knw. :) we shouldnt even talk about other people. Everyone have their own way of living in this world. even if its not they way u want them to be, let them be because no one have the rights to control others. be nice to people, talk nice about people. even in return, people talk bad about you behind you, at least u dont feel guilty. :)

I knw a lot of ppl didnt like me. but im trying my best to change and be more of myself.

There is this friend, she was really close to me, used to. but cuz im trying to knw her too much, in the end, she didnt like me. i was sad, obviously. but i knw, one day, she will be my friend again. i just want her to knw, if she is sad, going through a rough time, im always there for her, no matter what happen.

And there is this friend, i backstab her too much last year. but in the end, she forgive me. i was a really bad person last year. now, i've change cuz of her. :) if it isnt for her, i would still be talking bad about other people. hahaha. even now, i knw she dislike talking or even smiling to me, but at least i knw, she still treat me as a friend. thanks :)

My family moved out this year. my grandmother cried for 1 month. i went back to see her every now and then. she still cry whenever she mentioned about my dad. i cried too. i dont have much time left to spend with my grandmother. eventhough my dad still talk bad about her own mother, which is my grandmother, my grandmother still say:

"You have to be a good girl. respect your father. Even though he left without telling me, he is still my son. I wanna see him living a better life. I wanna see him success in his business. if he talks bad about me, its okay. because i knw im not a nice mother."

I cried so badly after hearing that. my grandma also teach me not to talk bad about other people no matter how much you dislike a person.

And for relationships,

I learn to wait. i shouldnt accept someone if i still like another person. full of regrets yo :/ im still waiting for him to come back. im still waiting for him to say he likes me back to. im still waiting. good things needs patience :)

Lemme tell you something funny.

I learn not to trust promises that was made by boys hahahaha xD they wont fulfill it. they will just break it some how. They change too fast. well, not all boys actually. hahahahaha. :)

to be continued. :)